Disclaimers: This work of fanfiction is a strictly not-for-profit venture. I don't own the characters, and I didn't ask before I used them. Most of them belong to DC comics/Warner Brothers (i.e. Time/Warner - a giant conglomerate who hopefully will ignore that I've borrowed these guys for about 36 hours). "The Children's Hour" is written by Henry Wadsworth Longfellow and was published in 1860. Spud (James) and Filb belong to Smitty, who created them and who most graciously allowed me to play in her Futurewhen. In fact, without Smitty, this fic would never have come into existence at all, so if you like it, thank her. Bert (who doesn't appear but gets mentioned) belongs to Kerrie Smith. The string of silver beads in part 5 belong to JB McDragon and are used with permission. The story in which they originally appear (_Decorating the Tree_) is archived on A.j.'s "Birds of a Feather" site - http://www.the-family-archives.com/birdsofafeather/. Please go there, read the story, and give homage to the creator. The orphanage tradition (mentioned in parts 4 - 7) derives from a Syl Francis fic (_A Christmas Wish_) and is also used with permission. This story is not set in strict continuity with Syl's version of the Bat universe, but her little Dick stories definitely influenced the way it turned out. If you haven't read Sylfic, go read it now. Setting: This story is firmly in the Potatoverse - a Futurewhen created by Amanda Smith (Smitty). It will probably make next to no sense if you haven't already tasted Potatoes. It is +6 years from the current comic continuity. In Potato continuity, this story occurs a year and a half after the Graysons first take Spud into their care, and about five months after the adoption was finalized. Thank yous: To Syl and JB McDragon, obviously, for allowing me to use their stories. To Reccea, for reading and feedbacking and being supportive. To Rose and amy and A.j. and Phoenix and 'rith for being able to keep a secret. And the big ones - to Kerrie, who got a hold of it when it was still a "for Smitty's eyes only" affair and provided more encouragement than I probably deserved. She truly is SON OF KRYPTON. And to Smitty, who won a battle of wills to get this fic started, and then would not let me abandon it when I decided it was too long and stilted, and who insisted that it should be posted. I am honored that Smitty allowed me to play with her characters and flattered that she thinks this fic is worth sharing. Plus she also beta'd this, and as long as it is, that was no mean feat! Thanks, Smitty. I owe you. Summary: The first Wayne-Lance family Christmas reminds everyone of the tenuous place of kevlar in matters of the heart. Archiving: You're kidding, right? Smitty's in charge, so go through her. Please don't archive without talking to her first. *** Ghosts of Christmas Present by Chicago (chicago_haven@yahoo.com) *** Ghosts of Christmas Present by Chicago part 1: Checking In "Hold on a minute," Barbara said, glancing toward the door of her command center. "Come in, James," she said gently. "That boy's still up?" Dinah chided in her ear. "It's after midnight." James, meanwhile, slipped into the room guiltily, hesitating, his hand on the doorknob. Barbara kept her tone mild. "Seems to me it's past time for small potatoes to be asleep. Need me to tuck you back in?" "A mother's work is never done," Dinah remarked. "You'll get yours, Dinah," Barbara replied, still watching her son. He was staring past her at the unmoving blue dot on her screen. "Dick's not home yet," he said. "No, he's not. You wanna come sit by me?" Babs patted his usual chair invitingly. "Nothing gets by that kid, does it?" Dinah observed. Barbara did not answer, focusing on James as he pushed his swivel chair closer to her until its casters bumped against the wheels of her chair and the armrests of both chairs were almost touching. He scrambled into his seat and curled up in it, settling his arms and head on Babs' arm rest. She ran her fingers over his thick red hair, offering him assurance she didn't quite feel. "I'm sure he's okay. His stakeout is just running longer than expected." James did not lift his head, and his eyes remained focused on Oracle's screen. His fingers reached absently for the cross dangling from his neck. "His shift ended at eight." Barbara sighed. "I know it did, munchkin, but you know how the Bludhaven PD gets around Christmas. Someone probably didn't show up for work." Never mind that Dick's shift started at 8 am and he was supposed to have today off, she added to herself. "Did you ask for the signal?" Barbara paused in her stroking of James' head. She didn't want to alarm her son, but she had to be honest with him. When she had settled into "Oracle central" after putting James to bed about 9:00, she had been mildly surprised to see Dick's tracer still showed him at the site of a stakeout. It was the same stakeout he'd been on while she and James wrapped Christmas presents and packed and ate dinner and read bedtime stories. She had smiled to herself in amusement at the case of fidgets she was sure Dick had after several hours in the car. She knew he would be anxious to do a cursory tour of the city in his "special pajamas" and then make arrangements for James' "surprise," whatever it was. Without much further thought, she had begun processing information requests from the JLA that she had deemed less urgent than quality time with James. By ten o'clock, Dick still was sitting at his stakeout, and Barbara had begun to worry. It wasn't inconceivable that he'd been unable to get away to call, but it seemed unlikely that even Bludhaven had not found a relief unit for him and Filb yet. That was when she had sent for the signal. The signal was simple enough - Barbara would buzz a special pager Dick wore whenever he was away from the house, either as Nightwing or as Officer Grayson. If Dick pressed a button on the pager, all was well - a little Nightwing signal would light up on Barbara tracking screen. It was a way of quickly checking in at times when Dick could not be in constant conversation with his wife and son back in the command center - as when he was on duty for the police department or in a situation that demanded silence. Barbara had been sending for the signal at half-hour intervals since 10 o'clock. "There's been no answer," she said to James, although she sensed he already knew. "Barbara, take me off the headset and put me on visual," Dinah demanded suddenly. Keeping one hand on James' back to comfort him, Barbara used the other to key in the command for visual hook up and remove her headset. Dinah's smiling face appeared on a screen next to Barbara's tracking monitor. "Hi, James," she said cheerily. "You ready for a couple nights at the Manor?" James still did not lift his head, but he nodded. "I got something for the babies." Dinah grinned. "Is it a trampoline they can jump around on when they get done bouncing around inside of me?" "They're kicking a lot, huh?" Barbara asked, grateful for the distraction Dinah was providing. "I want to say they learned from the best, but they haven't had a chance to learn anything yet. It must be genetic. You should see what Alfred's done to this place, by the way." "He does the place up every Christmas, Dinah," Babs reminded her. "It's Stately Wayne Manor. They have to dress it up for all those charity galas and stuff." "No, no - the last gala was a week ago. Alfred's worked more magic. Did you know Bruce had toy trains?" Barbara wanted to giggle, but concern for James choked down the reaction. James loved trains. The mention of trains should have perked him up. Instead he just replied, "Really?" His eyes had drifted back to the stationary blue dot. He continued to finger his cross. Barbara and Dinah exchanged a worried look. Barbara knew her son never slept well until he knew Dick was safely home for the night. There had been that one horrible week in August, shortly after the adoption was finalized, when Dick had been terribly injured. The family suffered a touch and go 48 hours, followed by days of uncertainty as to whether Dick would fully recover. As always, he bounced back quickly, but James had recovered less surely. For weeks he would barely speak to Dick save to demand that his new father give up his "special pajamas" for good. He began to refuse to answer to Spud at all, and he asked with increasing frequency for stories about "his grandpa James." Bruce and Dinah had stepped in, finally, suggesting James come spend a few days with them at the Manor. Bruce was his typical close-mouthed self about what had gone on during his stint as "grandpa," but Dinah said James had spent many evenings in the Batcave in quiet conversation with Bruce and more hours in the kitchen with Alfred. When James returned home, he announced stubbornly that he was _Oracle's_ sidekick, but things had steadily improved between him and Dick. Barbara had long ago lost track of how many hours of heart to heart conversations had happened between Nightwing and "O2" over the comlink into her command center, but her boys were soon closer than ever. And now Dick was apparently still and silent - a blue unwavering dot on a tracking monitor in the first hours of Christmas Eve day - and his son was scarcely more mobile or outspoken. Dinah sighed. "James, you're worried about Dick, aren't you?" This at least drew James' eyes back to her face. He nodded, and Barbara could see his eyes begin to glaze with tears. "Look, kid, he's probably broken his signal knowing how clumsy that boy is. And it wouldn't be the first time someone has ditched their Oracle tracking system." Barbara snorted at this. "Yeah, you've definitely had your moments, BC." "Hey, a girl doesn't always want an eye in the sky keeping up with her." "Of course, if you hadn't ditched my tracer, you probably wouldn't be in the mess you're in now," Barbara replied, relieved to see that this banter appeared to be calming James. "Is Bruce home?" he asked suddenly. Dinah shook her head. "It's nighttime in Gotham. Like son, like father." Barbara was startled when James sat up suddenly and used the desk edge to pull his chair across the floor to his keyboard. With a few keystrokes, he called up a bat logo onto another monitor. "O2 to Batman," he said crisply. Before either Dinah or Barbara could react, the cold tones of the Dark Knight whispered through Oracle's command center. "Go ahead, O2." "Batman, have you seen Nightwing?" James asked. In the brief silence before Batman's reply, Dinah looked at Barbara and shook her head. "And like father, like son." "Nightwing's not back yet?" Batman asked, his tone betraying no surprise or concern. "Batman," Barbara broke in, "we have no information that he ever left Bludhaven." "Understood. I'll get back to you." Batman ended his transmission abruptly, but James' expression had lightened. He pulled his chair back next to Barbara and slapped a command into her keyboard, shutting down the offending tracking program with a final disdainful look at the fading screen. "He's gonna hear it when he gets home," he grumbled, curling up against Barbara's arm rest again. Dinah laughed. "Or maybe I should say like mother, like son." Barbara shot her a look. "Good night, Dinah," she said firmly. "See, James? No respect." A little giggle escaped James. "That's why we need to stick together, Bird Babe." Dinah smiled at the private joke. "You got it, Tater Tot." "Good night, Dinah. See you tomorrow," James replied. Dinah snorted. "Or later today. Get some sleep, kid. Good night, Barbara." Dinah's face winked off the monitor, leaving behind only the JLA desktop. Barbara sighed. "Shall I make us some hot chocolate, munchkin?" James sat up, eyeing her suspiciously. "Are you tryin' to make me fall asleep?" Barbara laughed ruefully. "Do you want to go to sleep?" "Dick's not home," he pointed out stubbornly. "I know." She backed her wheelchair up, turning for the door. "And I'm going to have some hot chocolate. I can make some for you, too, if you plan on sitting up with me." James looked at the computer monitor, pulling his knees up to his chest and hugging them to him. "Okay," he agreed. He settled his chin on his knees, prepared to wait as long as it took for Dick to come home. End Part One Ghosts of Christmas Present by Chicago Part 2: The Art of the Detective Batman had just nosed the Batmobile off the expressway and onto the Bristol off ramp when his comlink activated. An electronically masked voice came on line: "O2 to Batman." "Go ahead, O2," he replied. There was scarcely a pause before the voice returned. "Batman, have you seen Nightwing?" That would explain why the boy was still up, Batman reflected. "Nightwing's not back yet?" he asked, knowing he was risking the surprise, but unwilling to let his adopted grandson stew. Oracle's voice came on then, saying, "Batman, we have no information that he ever left Bludhaven." Bruce raised an eyebrow under his cowl. Dick had slipped his tracer? And even through the Oracle voice, Barbara sounded concerned. Something wasn't right. "Understood. I'll get back to you." Batman frowned as he closed the connection. It was unlike Dick to let his family worry, even for the sake of a surprise. And he should have been home by now. He turned the Batmobile back toward Gotham. "Computer," he said, "dial Thompkins." There was a pause as the phone rang, then Dr. Leslie Thompkins' "Hello?" came through. "Hi, Leslie. Sorry about the hour." Any trace of bleariness left Leslie's voice. "Is everything okay?" she asked sharply. "I'm not sure. Can you tell me when Dick left or where he might have been going?" "He's not home yet?" She sounded alarmed. "He left hours ago." She paused, and Batman could almost hear her mentally calming herself. "He was late leaving here - he helped me deal with a belligerent patient before he went on his errand. Then after he brought back his 'friend,' he had to head for the Clocktower before he went home. That was around 8:30." "The Clocktower?" A hint of amusement cut through the concern in Leslie's voice. "His 'friend' had a little accident when Dick was carrying him in." "Oh," Batman replied in sudden comprehension. "I'll swing by the Tower then. Thanks, Leslie." "Let me know when he turns up." "I will." "Bye." There was a click as Leslie hung up the phone, and Batman headed toward midtown to stow the Batmobile and return to the rooftops. Barbara and Dick had decided to maintain the Clocktower as a home-away-from-home in Gotham even after they had married and Cassandra had left to live at the Manor. Dick had often commented on how much better it was to have a base in the center of the city instead of out at the Manor, and whenever Batman asked for Nightwing's aid in Gotham, they met at the Clocktower. It no longer had quite the computer and security infrastructure it had when Barbara was living there full time, but it was still a tightly secured building with substantial hardware. It took Batman a few minutes to make his silent and unobserved approach across the rooftops. Those few minutes in familiar territory were long enough for a million thoughts and questions to flit through the mind of the Dark Knight. Had Dick even made it this far from Leslie's? If he had, he would have realized that a shower and load of laundry would have made him desperately late. Why wouldn't he have at least signaled his family? Batman knew Dick had been in the clear until 8 p.m., which was when he had told Barbara and James that his shift was ending. He might have been willing to push that envelope until 9 o'clock - 9:30 at the outside - before he would have broken down and revealed he was in Gotham. Where was Dick? He had left Leslie's at 8:30 and headed to the Clocktower. He could have decided to change into one of the Nightwing costumes he kept in the Tower and then headed for home on the Wing cycle, ending up exactly where he was supposed to be at around 9:30 and radioing in apologies. That sounded like - Batman's thoughts were interrupted as he landed - or tried to - on the iron fire escape outside the window which had become the traditional entry for rooftop vigilantes. His feet shot out from under him on the ice coated metal, sending him hurtling back over the railing. Twisting swiftly in mid-air, he just managed to grab hold of one of the balustrades, leaving him hanging one-armed over the alley below. For a moment he hung there, letting the pain of his wrenched shoulder subside, and then he pulled himself up, swinging back onto the fire escape more carefully. The parallel iron strips which formed the floor of the fire escape made them the perfect site for a build up of almost frictionless ice, and just standing on it was work. Batman was reaching for the window - and the promise of firmer footing inside - when a thought occurred to him. Gingerly shifting his weight on the slick ice, he turned to inspect the fire escape railing. The ice coating there was incomplete - a chunk of it had broken away. Grasping another part of the railing for balance, Batman leaned in closer. The metal had caught a hank of hair - short black hair. Around the hair he could vaguely pick out a congealed red. Blood. Steeling himself, Batman closed his eyes, willing himself to envision a scene he didn't want to think about. Dick had come here, parking his car in the garage space below and entering as Dick Grayson. He'd probably showered quickly, suited up, and dashed with his usual exuberance for the window, planning to vault to the rooftops and swing over to wherever he had stashed the Wing cycle on his last visit to Gotham. His mind preoccupied with the great Christmas he had planned for his son, he had assuredly not noticed the ice until it was too late to react. In his mind's eye, Batman retraced the maneuver he had seen Nightwing execute a million times, seeing exactly how he would have placed his hands, the way they would have shot out from under him, altering his momentum, how his legs would have swung up as his head arced down, the crack of bone against iron and the ensuing fall... He must have been knocked unconscious, and his fall would have been uncontrolled. His limbs might have banged lower landings on the fire escape until he landed - Batman took all this into account as he mentally marked the area in which he might expect to find Nightwing before he swung down into the alley to investigate. Then he shot out a jump line and dropped, whispering a silent prayer to the fates that, this night at least, they would spare him another loss. Nightwing wasn't in the alley. Batman was torn between relief and panic as he found the shadows empty of the familiar shape of his son. Had Dick retained consciousness, then, and managed to at least get himself onto the rooftops? Had he been found unconscious in the alley and been taken to a hospital? Batman paused for a moment, weighing his next move. Should he call Oracle now? He imagined Barbara and James in the command center, waiting for word. If he called them now, he could only say what they already knew - Dick was missing and might be hurt. Better to wait even a few minutes to see if he could find him, or at least another clue. Batman narrowly eyed the overflowing dumpsters and discarded mattresses that seemed to live in every Gotham alley, once again mentally projecting the trajectory of an unconscious man in free fall from the fire escape above. His attention focused on a particularly sloppy pile of garbage bags, spilling into the alley way and topped by a flopping twin mattress, soiled and sodden. Even at their worst, Gotham residents rarely allowed the contents of their dumpsters to impede traffic through the alleys - although they seemed to have no problem driving over the garbage rather than moving it if it happened to be in their way. This pile had the air of one once carefully stacked and then disturbed. As if something or someone had fallen on it from above. Picking a path through the trash bags, Batman noticed some had ruptured and split. The cold Gotham night minimized the odor of rot and decay and urine that always pervaded alley dumpsters, but even if it had been high summer, Batman would not have been deterred. A dark patch on the mattress had caught his attention, a spreading stain that appeared fresher than the other dark and dingy patterns of grime. Again blood. Not as much as there could have been, thankfully, but still blood. Carefully inspecting the disarray of the garbage and looking again toward the fire escape high above, Batman did not allow himself to think of how lucky Dick probably was to be alive. Instead he focused on the clues - where had he gone from here? From the way the garbage was strewn, it appeared that he had regained consciousness and left under his own power. Had he been disoriented? Suffering memory loss? What would Nightwing do upon awaking with a head injury and possibly other hurts in a pile of garbage? Call home was the obvious answer, but he had not done that. His comlink must have been damaged in the fall. Head for home, then, Batman decided, resuming his careful search for clues. There was a blood smear at the end of the alley at about Dick's shoulder height, a barely discernable red-brownness against the grimy yellow brick of the building adjacent to the Clocktower. On closer inspection, it was clearly a mark made by a hand, as if a wave of dizziness had compelled Nightwing to grab the wall for support. Batman pushed down the knot that grew in his stomach at this image, focusing instead on imagining his son's next steps. His eyes scanned the surrounding buildings. As if on cue, the moon emerged into a hole between scudding clouds, casting faint illumination on the grotesques and gargoyles of the upper reaches of Gotham. Almost unconsciously Batman rested his eyes on one of the stone monsters that Nightwing had once proclaimed his favorite in all of Gotham. It was a fantastical demon, but one upon which the carver had bestowed a faintly bewildered expression. The curves of stone had been the perfect hiding place for a tired and bored Robin on long stakeouts, creating a little nest where Dick had nodded off more than once as a boy. As he grew, he still favored this gargoyle when working in this part of town. Although he could no longer cuddle up in its recesses, he claimed it still made a comfortable lounging perch. In later years, Batman began to suspect he was more entranced with the view of the occupant of the Clocktower that he could get from that gargoyle than with any inherent comfort of the cold stone. Now, however, in the fierce wind and intermittent moonlight, something other than fond memory had caught his eyes. For a split second, the weather conditions perfectly silhouetted an arc of line curling away from the gargoyle's snout and snapping in the wind. Batman checked the time - impossible as it seemed, only twenty minutes had passed since he had last spoken with Barbara and James. In ten minutes, he promised silently, I'll call, whether I've found him or not. Then he shot a grappling line for the gargoyle and pulled himself back up to the rooftops. Nightwing wasn't there, but it was clear he had been. The abandoned jump line was uncharacteristic, but it had caught in such a way that it took two hands and a good amount of focus for Batman to untangle it and stow it. It was the kind of grappling snag that Dick always compared to the frustration of having a fish swallow the hook. The joking complaint always brought an image to Bruce's mind of Dick, eight years old and barefoot, fishing in some small town creek with Pop Haly. The jump lines tucked away, Batman inspected the rooftop. Old snow, crusted with ice from the earlier freezing rain, revealed staggering footprints heading vaguely toward the opposite corner of the roof - toward Robinson Park. There were again faint traces of blood as Batman followed the trail, and then a faint acrid odor of vomit. As Batman stared at the knee prints in the snow and a single handprint where Nightwing had braced himself against his fall, his comlink beeped. Dinah's voice came through his cowl. "Batman." "Yes, Canary," Batman winced. He had been as guilty as Nightwing of not checking in. "Is everything okay?" "Alfred and I were wondering if there was any word on our missing friend." She must have been talking to Barbara, Batman realized. Her voice was professional, but it carried a hint of concern and understanding. He closed his eyes. Yes, Dinah had always understood how he felt about his family, even when he hadn't himself. "I'm tracking him now." Then he had a thought that started him flying back toward the Batmobile. "Canary, I need you to check the daily log for the Robinson Park complex." He heard her relay the request to Alfred and smiled. It wasn't that she couldn't learn computers, but she knew how to be resistant. Her cheer almost deafened him. "WOO HOO! You are a genius, Mr. Bat. One Nightwing, entering the complex at 11:02 p.m., and out the door at 11:28. Shall I alert Oracle?" "Negative." "Bruce! They're worried sick! You can't-" "Dinah, I'm following a blood trail," he said curtly. There was a stunned silence, and then Dinah faintly saying, "Oh god..." He wanted to reassure her as he settled into the Batmobile, but by the time he pulled out of the alley, Alfred's voice had replaced Dinah's. "Sir, what is the situation?" he asked properly, hiding the worry Bruce knew he felt. "He fell, Alfred. Head injury at least from what I can piece together. I just want to check something, then I'll give Oracle the heads up." "Please do, sir. Worrying for a loved one is never a pleasant experience." "I know, Alfred. Is Dinah okay?" "She will be better when Master Dick is found and you have returned home." "So will I, Alfred." "Good enough, sir. We will be waiting to hear from you." The line went dead as Batman snaked the car through the elaborate tunnel entrance under Robinson Park. He was out of the car and to the motorcycle bay in seconds. The Wing cycle was still there, but a more civilian bike was gone. Batman squatted to inspect the ground around the bike stall. Again, there were a few traces of blood - and something else. Batman picked up the mask that lay on the floor. Nightwing might have entered this complex, but it was Dick Grayson who had left it. Whatever was running through his mind, Dick had decided to take his injuries home to his wife and son. Batman straightened and opened a channel. "Batman to Oracle." The reply was instantaneous. "Oracle here. Have you found him?" "He should be en route to your location. He-" A beeping sound interrupted him, and he heard James in the background yell, "He's home!" "James-! Sorry, Batman. But I've got to go." "Barbara, wait. You need to know -" But the line had gone dead. Batman pushed back his cowl and sighed, thankful that Dick had made it home, that he wasn't lying dead on the highway between Gotham and Bludhaven. He stared at the mask in his hand, the legacy of two decades as a parent. Two foundling boys he'd raised - or tried to. One was lying cold in the ground this Christmas Eve. The other he'd almost lost too many times to count. Bruce Wayne slipped his hand from his glove to dash away a single tear of relief and weariness. How would he handle the new babies on the way, he wondered? Had he learned from his mistakes? He quietly secreted the Nightwing mask into a belt compartment and replaced his glove and cowl, settling back into his Dark Knight persona. He was still worried about Dick, but Barbara would call with updates. It had been a long night, and part of his family was still waiting for him to come home. End Part Two Ghosts of Christmas Present by Chicago Part 3: The Other Side of Heroism "One...two... Damn!" "Language, James. Aha! One... Two... Three! I win again!" "No fair, you were starting a lecture. You distracted me!" "Are you going to come up with an excuse every time you lose? 'Cuz that's just sad." James gave Barbara a withering look, then held out his hand. "Let's go again." Barbara looked at his hand for a minute. "You like punishment, don't you?" James waved his hand insistently. "Whatsa matter, ol' lady? Ya tired?" "Oh, so that's how it's going to be." Barbara interlaced her fingers with James' and stuck up her thumb. "Bring it on, potato boy." James set his jaw in childish determination - his "game face" - and stuck up his thumb. "You're going down." Barbara quirked an eyebrow mildly. "Oh, really? Let's go." Barbara had almost pinned James' thumb for the fourth consecutive round when the Bat insignia popped up on the computer, disrupting the cityscape screensaver. "Batman to Oracle." Both Barbara and James turned to the monitor, their game instantly forgotten. "Oracle here. Have you found him?" Batman's voice was level. "He should be en route to your location. He-" Almost as if on cue, the beeping of a low level intruder alarm sounded, flashing an image of the front entrance of the Grayson home. "He's home!" James yelled, flying out of his chair toward the front door faster than Barbara could make a grab at his arm. "James-!" A glance at the monitor was enough to tell her that the boy was right, and her relief was tempered by anger at the hours of apparently needless worry. "Sorry, Batman. But I've got to go." She thought she heard him start to say something as she closed the connection, but it did not matter. Dick was home, and he was going to get a firm talking to. By the time Barbara reached the entrance way, Dick had made it through the front door and was being pummeled by James. "Where WERE you?" the boy was demanding, choking on sobs as his fists reached for Dick's chest. "We were worried, we thought -" Dick was slumping against the wall under his son's assault, wincing as the arm he held curled protectively against his body took several of the boy's wildly unaimed blows. "Spud," he whispered in protest. At the sound of his nickname, James pulled back as if burned. He stood back, trembling, staring at his adoptive father, taking in the unsteadiness of his stance and his pale, drawn features. He seemed rooted to the spot, caught in a private nightmare. Barbara whisked into action, wheeling up to Dick just as it seemed his knees were about to buckle. He reached silently for her with his good arm, dropping to one knee and then slipping to the floor, his forehead resting against Barbara's arm rest and his hand in hers. Dick's hand was purplish with cold and the hair on the back of his head was matted with blood. Barbara felt her stomach constricting, but she had no time for her own fear. James still stood rigid, his face drained of color, and Dick needed immediate attention. "James," she began, her voice reflecting a firm calmness she didn't feel, "run to the linen closet and get me one of those big blankets." The sound of her voice seemed to snap James out of his spell, and he scrambled to follow orders. Barbara, meanwhile, leaned down, putting a gentle hand on Dick's back and trying not to notice how very cold he seemed. "Dick, honey," she said softly. "I'm sorry, Babs," he mumbled. "Is James-?" "Shh. Dick, I need you to get up for me, honey. I can't treat you in the foyer." Barely taking her eyes from her husband, she accepted the requested blanket from James and draped it over Dick's shoulders. "Thanks, James." Dick lifted his head and smiled weakly at the boy hovering nearby. "Hey, Spud. I did it again, didn't I?" Barbara could see James swallowing tears. His voice was rough as he stepped forward and pulled Dick's injured arm around him, saying, "Come on, Dick. On your feet." Dick seemed vaguely bemused as James bullied him upright and led him to the med bay tucked into the basement of the Grayson home. Barbara narrowly watched Dick's staggering footsteps as he propped himself along the wall with his good arm to avoid putting too much of his weight on his son. At least he wasn't limping, she noted with relief. The head injury looked scary, but Dick seemed relatively coherent and she had seen worse. She suspected the arm that Dick was hanging awkwardly around James' shoulders was broken, which would aggravate Dick and lead to some cranky arguments in the coming weeks. The coldness of his body troubled her, suggesting as it did mild hypothermia, but she could feel her panic easing as James helped Dick through her workroom and into the elevator. She knew what she needed to do. Her tone was brisk as she exited the elevator and directed James to sit Dick down on the examination table. "Okay, let's get this down to a level where I can see you," she said. "Watch your toes." She pressed a button which gradually lowered the bed, allowing her to really inspect and deal with Dick's injuries. She noticed that as the bed lowered, Dick began shivering uncontrollably. Wheeling in front of Dick, she took hold of his now more pale than purple hand and drew it to her for inspection. "James, wrap that blanket a little more tightly over Dick's shoulders for me," she ordered. While James hurried to help, Barbara saw that color was beginning to return to Dick's bloodless fingers. No frostbite, she noted with relief, just cold. "Dick, where are your gloves?" "F-f-f-org-g-got-t-t 'em," he gritted through chattering teeth. "And you rode your cycle home, didn't you?" Dick nodded. Barbara shot a glance at James, who still knelt on the bed beside Dick, his hands hanging helplessly as Dick continued to shiver. "Let that be a lesson to you, James. Riding a motorcycle in December without gloves is a bad idea. Now, Dick, I'm going to examine this knot on your head, okay? James, can you get Alfred on the line for me?" James reacted instantly to Barbara's request, anxious to be doing anything other than watching uselessly as Dick trembled with cold. As Barbara ran a basin of warm water to clean the blood away from Dick's injury, James slipped into a chair facing one of the omnipresent computers in the Grayson home. His fingers flew swiftly over the keyboard, summoning up Alfred's kindly face on the wide monitor. "Hello Master James," Alfred said before James could open his mouth. "I understand our missing bird has returned home." James nodded dumbly, feeling tears start to well in his eyes again. "Master Bruce has radioed us that Master Dick might be injured," Alfred prompted. The butler's words echoed in James' head, keying recognition. Alfred would be worried, too, he realized, and found his voice. "He hit his head, and I think his arm is broken," he reported. Then, with a worried glance back at the bed where Barbara was continuing to work, he dropped his voice and his eyes. "He won't stop shivering. I got him a blanket, but I can't get him warm." "No wonder on such a cold Gotham night, young Master James," Alfred replied. "He needs to get something warming inside him. Some hot broth, perhaps." James was listening, but Alfred's words could not push past the image of Dick's shuddering form. "Master James!" Alfred suddenly barked. James looked up, startled. "That's better. Miss Barbara will have her hands full tending to Master Dick's injuries. It is up to you to help her get him warm. You will go to the kitchen and prepare some broth as I have taught you to make." James stared at Alfred. Leave Dick? He couldn't leave... Alfred's face softened as he looked into the boy's eyes. "Master James, I know how you desire to be there for him," he said quietly. "It is sometimes the price of heroism that we can best help someone we love-" "-by doing what needs to be done elsewhere," James finished, drawing courage from Alfred's mantra and from the kind confidence in the old man's eyes. "Thanks, Alfred," he whispered before activating the room wide camera. "Babs, I got Alfred," he called, hopping up from his seat. "Thanks, James. Hi, Alfred." "Miss Barbara. Ah, Master Dick. Good to see you are conscious." "Ow! G-g-got-t-t C-c-christmas d-d-dinner s-st-st-tarted-d yet-t-t?" Dick quipped, sending a palpable wave of relief through the room. "Whoa, James," Barbara suddenly interrupted. "Where are you going?" James paused at the elevator door. "I gotta go make some hot broth." He dashed into the waiting elevator, oblivious to the grateful look that Barbara gave Alfred. By the time James returned, carefully balancing a tray of three mugs, Dick's shivering had eased, if not completely ended, and Barbara had splinted his broken left wrist. Barbara was again inspecting the back of Dick's head. "...probably right, Alfred. It looks like stitches are in order," she was saying. "Ohh," Dick groaned. "My h-head hurts-s en-nough alr-ready." "You are just lucky you are so hard-headed, Master Dick. And lucky that Master James is around to question your whereabouts in the middle of the night." Dick turned his attention to James, smiling at the concentration with which he bore his tray. "I am l-lucky," he murmured, ruffling James hair. "Hey, i-is that-t h-hot choc-colate?" James gave Dick a hard glare. "That's mine. You get broth. And Babs, I brought you coffee." "Thanks, James," Barbara answered, giving him a quick smile and returning her attention to preparing a tray of equipment for stitching Dick's wound. Dick accepted his mug of broth with a faint pout at James, who set his tray down on a small side table and hopped up next to Dick on the examining table. "So, Dick," he said with careful nonchalance, "what happened?" Dick finished a swallow of broth. "Just like Alfred's," he remarked with a hint of surprise. On the wide monitor, a faint smile appeared on Alfred's face. "I believe the lad asked you a question, Master Dick." Dick frowned. "I'm not sure. I don't even remember what I was doing in Gotham. I was by the Clocktower when I came to-" "You fell," a new voice said as Bruce's face came into the picture behind Alfred. "Are you all right, Dick?" "He'll be right as rain as soon as I get him stitched up, here," Barbara interjected. She laid a hand on Dick's shoulder. "Sit still." "Yes, ma'am," he replied, then looked back to the monitor, his face again puzzled. "I fell?" "Slipped, actually. On the fire escape. It was icy." James was regarding Dick with a mix of concern and amusement. "You slipped on ice?" "Don't move, Dick," Barbara warned. "I don't remember. Bruce, was - why was I in Gotham?" "That's what I'd like to know," James interrupted. "You slipped your tracer, you never gave any signal-" "James," Barbara cautioned gently. "I'm sure Dick thought it was a good idea at the time." "OW! Babs-" "What?" Barbara replied innocently. "Almost done." James caught Barbara's eye as she smiled faintly, finishing her last stitch and unwrapping a sterile dressing. A tightness in him began to loosen as he took a sip of hot chocolate. "Master Bruce, I think we should postpone our Christmas Eve dinner until early evening given the events of the night," Alfred was suggesting. James wasn't really listening anymore. He felt Dick's splinted arm encircle him, pulling him into the warmth of the blanket Dick still wore over his shoulders. "Good idea, Alfred. We'll see you kids this afternoon?" "We'll be there, Bruce," Barbara replied, crossing to the keyboard. "Give Dinah my love." "I will," Bruce replied. "Good night." Barbara severed the connection and looked back to Dick and James. Dick was regarding James fondly. "I'm sorry I made you worry, Spud," he murmured, lifting the hot chocolate mug from his son's hands. "'S'okay," James mumbled sleepily, curling closer against Dick's ribs. Dick looked up at Barbara. "I am sorry. When I woke up I tried to call you, but I wear my comlink on my left gauntlet-" He smiled apologetically, nodding toward the damaged limb that was wrapped around their son. Barbara took a deep breath. "You scared us, Dick. You scared me, which is bad, but you scared James, which is unconscionable." "I know." Dick gazed at the now sleeping boy, sorry to have reawakened the anguish of the summer for his son. He pushed those memories away, and found his mind going back to his own youth, to school nights when he would wait up anyway for the safe return of his mentor, able to sleep soundly only when he heard his voice and knew Bruce was home. He had hated being left at home, not knowing, not being able to be there if Batman needed him. He held James a little closer. Barbara interrupted his thoughts. "Well, we've got a good few hours to stay awake before I'll feel comfortable letting you sleep. I should take James to bed." "I'll take him," Dick replied. "Uh uhn, former Boy Wonder. You are not even thinking about exerting yourself in your condition." Dick hesitated. "Let's let him sleep here. I'll pull up a chair, and we can talk." Barbara gave Dick an unreadable look, then sighed. "I have mixed feelings about letting him sleep on the examining table, but fine. I'll get some more blankets." Dick reached out as she turned, catching the back of her chair. "Babs?" There was a hint of impatience in Barbara's tone. "Yes?" "I love you, Babs." Barbara pulled away with a snort, not wanting Dick to see her suddenly tearing eyes. "Dick Grayson, you better hope this surprise of yours is worth what you put us through tonight." Dick stared at her retreating back, guilt and bewilderment warring in him. "Surprise?" he mouthed. End Part Three Ghosts of Christmas Present by Chicago Part 4: Home for the Holidays Lian entered Wayne Manor with a casual saunter. "Hi, Alfie!" she said cheerily to the man holding the door. Two steps behind her, an amused Roy Harper was saying, "Alfie, I'll never figure out how you are always at the door as soon as anyone - WHOA!" Roy pinwheeled his arms to avoid colliding with his daughter, who had frozen in her tracks. "Lian, wh-" Roy fell silent as he took in the transformed Wayne Manor. He had seen it in its austerely tasteful holiday face, but this! Just past the arch of the entrance way, the main hall beckoned invitingly. A fire blazed and danced cheerfully in the giant fireplace, and a huge Christmas tree dominated one corner of the room, twinkling with lights. Under its branches were piled boxes and bundles of all possible sizes and shapes. A pair of electric train tracks curved around the tree before disappearing off down halls in either direction, then reemerging at other points in the room. Holly boughs trimmed the newel posts, and ivy wound along just below the banister to the second floor. The weak light of the overcast December midday became magical in this space. "Roy," a voice chided, "you should know better than to ask Alfred how he does things." "Gramma Canary!" Lian yelled, dashing to where Dinah had just stepped out from the far side of the tree. She leaped the train track - now occupied by an old style electric train heading off into another room - with an easy grace and caught Dinah in a bear hug. "Hi Lian," Dinah laughed. Lian leaned back to look into Dinah's face. "Wow, Gramma. I can't even get my arms around you!" "Tell me about it!" Dinah replied, as Roy muttered, "Oh, Lian..." "Where's Uncle Bruce?" "In his study, I think. He chased me out a while ago. Something about wrapping presents - so knock first!" Dinah yelled after Lian's retreating back. Roy shook his head. "I guess she's my kid," he remarked, opening his arms and hugging Dinah. "How you doing, Dinah?" Dinah returned his embrace. "Wonderful. It's good to see you." "You, too. Even if you are as big as a house. OW!" Dinah smiled as Roy released her in reaction to her jab to his ribs. "So where's Cissie?" "C'mon, now, Dinah, I had to give her a holiday off! I'm not some kind of ogre who insists on having a babysitter for my daughter on Christmas." "Oh, so you guys are still using that babysitting excuse." Roy's eyes widened in mock indignation. "Just what are you trying to imply?" "Nothing. Nothing at all. You gave your babysitter a couple days off. Good for you. She better have had a place to go for the holidays, though, Roy Harper, or you -" "Hold on, Dinah!" Roy was laughing. "Save the wrath of womankind for when I really deserve it! She's at Wonder Girl's." "You really could have brought her, you know." Roy nodded. "I know, but -" he lowered his voice and leaned in toward Dinah conspiratorially - "just between you and me, I think your husband makes her nervous." "Why would that be, Harper?" a Voice intoned grimly behind them. Roy flinched, then winced as he heard Lian's giggle. "Good one, Uncle Bruce! Daddy, you jumped like -" "Yeah, yeah," Roy replied in an annoyed tone. He gave Lian a look that only increased her giggles, but she released Bruce's hand and wrapped her arms around Roy's waist. "Poor Daddy. I'll keep the bats away." She turned and pulled her ever-present bow from her shoulder, giving Bruce a menacing look. "That's enough, sweetheart," Roy said, clearly discomfited as Dinah began laughing. Bruce, for his part, protectively held the present he was carrying in front of him. "Do what you must, young hero," he said somberly, "but don't damage my wife's present." "Uncle Bruce wrapped it himself!" Lian announced. Dinah looked at the box, mostly covered in a snowman patterned paper - and partly covered in wrapping paper with a sledding theme. The corners were more wadded than folded, and there was way more tape than was strictly necessary holding the paper to itself. "I see that," Dinah remarked. She tiptoed to kiss his cheek. "It looks lovely, Bruce." Roy wasn't sure, but he thought he saw a faint blush in Bruce's cheeks as he knelt to tuck the gift under the tree with the other presents. "So where's Sp - I mean, James?" Lian asked suddenly. "I haven't seen him in forever." "Try three weeks," Roy corrected. "But yeah, where _is_ the Grayson clan? Is it possible that they are _late_?" "Da-ad-dy," Lian rolled her eyes. "Uncle Dick is never late. And even if he wanted to be, Auntie Babs would never let him." Dinah glanced at Bruce, but he was making himself busy with the tree. He had tried not to wake her when he crept into bed at 3 a.m., after even Alfred had retired. Her own sleep, however, had been fitful at best as she reluctantly tried to get the rest Bruce insisted she needed. She had stayed in the Cave until Bruce returned and they both knew that Dick was home safe, if a little worse for wear. She still went to bed worried, though, and woke instantly as the mattress gave under Bruce's weight. She had curled up against the back he kept turned to her, her arm around him, and said nothing as Bruce's shudderingly silent sobs tore at her heart. She wondered if anyone began to suspect how truly deeply he worried for his family. She sighed. "Dick had an - accident - last night." "Is he-?" "Uncl-?" She held up a hand to stay Roy's and Lian's concern. "He's okay, but they had kind of long night over there in Bludhaven." Lian glanced up at her father, and Dinah could see how tightly she was holding Roy's hand. Not for the first time, Dinah wondered at the wisdom of bringing children into such danger prone families. She forcibly shoved this line of thought aside to answer Roy, who asked, "What happened?" "I'm not entirely sure. He was in Gotham for something and ended up falling off the Clocktower fire escape-" Dinah continued past the hissing intake of Roy's breath -"and somehow managed to not become street pizza." Roy's eyes narrowed suspiciously. "Nightwing fell?" "Babs says he can't remember what he was doing. But he's fine, guys, really, and they'll all be here around 2." "Hey, all the more Christmas eve dinner for the rest of us!" Roy joked with forced cheer, giving Lian's hand a squeeze. "Actually, Master Roy," Alfred began as he appeared from around the corner, "we've pushed back dinner until 4. An email and a voice mail were sent." ""Told ya we shoulda checked, Daddy," Lian sniffed, releasing Roy's hand to find out what had caught Bruce's attention on the tree. "I have taken the liberty of preparing a light lunch," Alfred continued, watching as Lian seemed to ask Bruce about a new train now curving around the tree before disappearing to another part of Manor. "Miss Dinah, you must eat, and I assume the rest of you will join her." "Well, in that case," Roy declared, holding his arm out to Dinah with a flourish, "may I escort you to lunch, Miss Dinah?" Dinah accepted his arm. "Why thank you, gallant sir!" Observing this, Lian turned to Bruce and grabbed one of his hands with both of hers, pulling him forward. "C'mon, Uncle Bruce, before Daddy eats everything!" Alfred nodded his satisfaction and returned to the kitchen to remove a pan of Christmas cookies from the oven and roll out more dough. He smiled faintly to himself - a proper family Christmas at Wayne Manor! He'd scarcely dared hope for such a thing, learning long ago to count a merry Christmas as one when he knew all his charges were home safe by midnight and were all on speaking terms. He paused in his kitchen labors to look in on how his family was doing with the buffet of finger sandwiches and snacks he'd prepared. He could hear their laughter down the hall, and his thoughts went unbidden to Christmases thirty-odd years past, when family laughter had been a regular feature of life at the Manor. "It has taken us a long time to get here," he thought in silent appeal to Bruce's long dead parents, "but I believe I've finally gotten close to your dream for your son." Bruce, of course, was not one of the participants in the laughter. He sat to one side, watching the interaction between Roy, Lian and Dinah. Someone else might dismiss him as his usual brooding self, but Alfred knew better. Bruce's face wore a mild expression, thoughtful, and Alfred speculated that he was wondering at the blending of his family and Dinah's. Night and day, Alfred thought, as Lian tossed grapes into her father's mouth with perfect accuracy. Roy danced around, continually shifting the target, but even Lian's giggling did not disrupt her aim. "Well, no doubt who's child she is," Dinah remarked from where she lounged in an arm chair. She had removed her shoes and had propped her bare feet on a foot stool. Alfred watched as she looked for a place to set her plate of food and made a sudden discovery. "Hey, guys, look what the babies can do!" There was a pause in the antics as all eyes turned to her, and Roy burst out laughing. Dinah's plate was perfectly balanced on her swollen belly. Lian scrambled over to inspect from all sides. "It's really just sitting there like on a table!" she announced. "It's their father's genes," Dinah determined, giving Bruce an affectionate glance. Just as she spoke, though, the plate jumped on her belly. Lian jerked back, startled, and Roy stared in wonder. "Was that a kick?" he asked. "That was their mother's genes asserting themselves," Bruce replied, his eyes resting on his wife, apparently oblivious to the incredulous look that passed from Roy to Lian. "A joke?" Roy mouthed to his daughter. "I can read lips, Harper," the Voice replied. Dinah burst out laughing. "_That_ was definitely a joke. I _told_ you he had a sense of humor, Roy." "Shh, Gramma Canary," Lian said, all seriousness. "It's supposed to be-" she dropped her voice to a whisper - "a _secret_." Roy chuckled and shook his head. "Lian, are there anymore of those peanut butter and jelly triangles over there?" "Alfie made those for _me_, Daddy." Wiping a smile from his face, Alfred picked up a waiting tray and entered the room. "I anticipated that you might be needing more of these, Master Roy." "WOO HOO! No one makes PB&J like you do, Alfie," Roy declared, snagging three of the little crustless quarters into which Alfred had cut the white bread sandwiches. Alfred crossed to Lian and bent down to display the tray. "Miss Lian? I'm afraid your father has left you only one quarter." "S'okay, Alfie, I'm almost full, anyway," she replied, grabbing the remaining quarter and a few pickles. "And Miss Dinah," he said, turning to the lady of the house, "I took the liberty of making a few of those tuna-salad-and-turnip-slice quarters than you've taken a fancy to." "Oh, Alfred! On pumpernickel, too!" Dinah exclaimed in delight as Roy choked on his sandwich and Lian crossed the room to thump him helpfully on the back. "You always know exactly what I want!" She enthusiastically picked up the quarters, munching them with gusto. "Tuna and turnips?" Roy spluttered, pulling a disgusted face. "On pumpernickel! Nutty, mushy, crunchy perfection!" Alfred set a tray table beside Dinah's chair and set a glass of milk on it. "Don't forget to drink this, Miss Dinah," he instructed, then drifted away to begin collecting empty dishes to take back with him to the kitchen. He paused in his duty only long enough to give Bruce a quick squeeze on the shoulder, pleased to see the smallest of smiles had settled onto his surrogate son's lips. Roy washed down the last of his sandwiches with a glass of milk and a satisfied sigh. "Lian, you an' me should go get the presents out of the car." "I can help with that," Bruce volunteered, rising from his chair. "Then you can pull your car into the garage for the night." "Won't we need it for the trip to the orphanage?" Roy asked. "We're going to take Tim's mini-van," Dinah replied, "and another of Bruce's vans for the presents for the kids. And while you guys are emptying Roy's car-" she stood up awkwardly "- I'm going to take these glasses back to Alfred in the kitchen and stay here where it's warm." "Sounds like a plan. Ready, Lian?" Lian gave her father a salute. "Give the word." Roy rolled his eyes. "Come on, kiddo." Then a mischievous smile crossed his face. "Last one to the car is a rotten bat!" Lian and Roy took off in a mad rush, leaving Bruce staring after them for a moment before he headed for the door. Dinah laughed. "Guess that'd be you, Bruce. Looks like Roy's got you pegged." Bruce just shook his head. "And to think I wondered where Dick picked that up." By the time he reached the car, Roy had the trunk open and was shifting boxes around in order to efficiently stack them in the waiting arms of his helpers. He'd just cleared space to remove the largest package when a car pulled up behind them. Lian pulled at Bruce's arm to look at his watch. "See, Daddy. Never late," she reported, holding Bruce's wrist up as evidence. The car's engine shut off, and Lian dropped Bruce's arm to greet its passengers. She had jumped into Dick's arms almost before he had stepped out of the front passenger seat. "Uncle Wing!" she cried, hugging him fiercely. Dick chuckled. "Hello to you, too, Lian." "You hurt your head," she observed with a pout. "And his arm," James observed dryly, causing Lian to drop guiltily to the ground. "Oh. Sorry, Uncle Wing-" "It's okay, Lian," Dick replied, resting a stilling hand on James' shoulder. Bruce, meanwhile, had approached the driver's side, where Barbara was expertly opening her wheelchair and transferring herself to it. He leaned down to hug her. "Hey, Barbara. How was traffic?" She smiled. "Hi Bruce. Not bad. I'm glad the snow held off." "Me, too," Roy agreed smoothly. "I'd hate for the belle of this ball to be at all delayed." He leaned over to kiss Barbara's cheek. "Hands off the wife, Roy," Dick growled playfully, coming around the car. "What? A guy can't appreciate his friend's gorgeous wife?" Then sotto voce to Barbara, "So when you gonna dump trapeze boy and let me show you my arsenal?" "Roy," Dick protested as Barbara giggled. Roy opened his arms to his friend and caught him in a bear hug. "Hey Dick. You okay?" "Right as rain. How you doin', buddy? Keeping out of trouble?" "Hey," he replied. "It's me," they finished together, laughing. Lian rolled her eyes and looked at James. "They're quoting Star Wars again." Her tone was exasperated. James shrugged and walked to Bruce, taking his hand. "Hi, Bruce," he said, looking up at him. Bruce ruffled James' hair. "You hanging in there, James?" The boy nodded, but he seemed ready to squirm away from the hint of concern in Bruce's voice. "Hey, Roy!" he called, pulling away from Bruce. "You wanna hear how Dick cracked his head?" Roy laughed as Dick put his hand to his head and groaned, "Help me, Babs." "James, let's unpack the car first, eh?" Babs suggested, a faint smile playing on her lips. Roy knelt down to James. "You'll tell me later, right, Potatohead?" James grinned devilishly. "You know it. It's just _too_ good." "Let me help, Auntie Babs," Lian insisted, brushing past the conspiratorial pair. "Hey, you were helping me!" Roy protested. "James can help you," Lian shot back. She turned back to Barbara, rolling her eyes. "Boys," she said with disgust. "Well, can someone help _me_?" came Dick's muffled voice from behind a precarious stack of boxes. He had already begun unloading the trunk of the Grayson car and had an uncertain grip on the packages in his arms. Bruce stepped forward quickly, catching the stack before it crashed to the ground and removing a few of the more awkward parcels from Dick's arms. "It's good to see you, Dick," he said quietly. Dick met his eyes briefly before returning his attention to his unpacking. "You too, Bruce," he murmured, then called, "Babs, let me put this stuff in your lap." "I got it, Dick," she replied, accepting the stack. Soon, all arms were laden with packages. "This is going to take a second trip," Roy observed. "We can bring the rest in through the garage entrance when we pull the cars around," Dick suggested, walking beside Barbara as she wheeled up the ramp to the Manor's front door. James and Lian dashed ahead on the stairs, vying to be the one who rang the bell. Barbara winced as a parcel dropped from James' hands. "I hope you didn't give them anything fragile to carry." Dick shrugged. "I don't even know what's in these boxes, remember?" Babs paused to stare at her husband for a second, then shook her head when she realized he was teasing. "You're hopeless, Grayson." "Nope. I've got you," he replied, leaning swiftly to kiss her cheek as the front door to the Manor opened. "My word! I sent out three and got back six!" Alfred Pennyworth exclaimed, opening the door wide for his family. Inside the Manor, a clock struck two. "Oh, Alfie, you knew they were here," Lian objected, hopping in the door with her packages. James cast a disparaging look after her. "Hi, _Alfred_," he said pointedly. "Master James, you seem to have dropped a parcel," Alfred replied in gentle reprimand, sending the boy back to pick it up. Barbara grinned. "Thanks, Alfred. Dinah said you'd worked wonders - oh!" Barbara wheeled her chair just clear of the door and sat staring at the Christmas wonder visible from the main entrance. "Miss Barbara, you are too kind. Welcome home, Master Dick." "Hey, Al," Dick replied cheerfully. "I'm just going to drop this load and head on back- whoa! Man, Dinah wasn't kidding." "What, you never seen a Christmas tree before? Thanks, Alfie." Roy slipped past the halted Graysons to cross through the main hall, step over the train tracks and add his armload of presents to the growing stack under the tree. "We planned to finish trimming it after dinner," Bruce put in, following close behind Roy. "It's just got the manufactured baubles on it now. Nothing family." "Alfred," came James plaintive cry from just beyond the door, "they gave me too much to carry! I keep droppin' stuff." Alfred stepped out quickly to help James, and Dick and Barbara made their way to the tree, marveling at the soft light and scent of pine that made the Manor seem as cozily inviting as either of them had ever seen it. Dick hopped the train track to drop his bundles, then accepted the packages that Barbara handed him from her lap. Both paused as a toy train whistle sounded, watching as a locomotive emerged from around the corner. The scale model engine was followed by several cars which caused Barbara to gasp in delight and look to her husband's face. Dick watched raptly as the managerie cars of a circus train steamed by, his face lit by wonder and nostalgia. His eyes followed it until it had finished it's circuit of the tree and disappeared down a hallway, then he looked mutely to his mentor. Bruce shrugged. "We found it mixed in with a bunch of the stuff we rescued from the quake but hadn't had time to sort out yet." "I see," Dick replied, his voice sounding oddly constricted. "Hey, Spud," he said to the boy standing rapt at the entrance, "hand that stuff over here." James jumped to obey. "You got it, Dick. You think we could set up a train set like this back home?" Dick looked into his son's shining eyes and glanced at his beaming wife. "We'll see." He hopped to his feet. "Roy, let's go get those cars moved." "Dick, maybe Roy should-" Dick snorted. "Let Harper park your car? I don't think so. I only need my left hand to steer. Don't worry." He gave Barbara his best devil-may-care grin and headed for the door, Roy following in his wake. "You don't trust me to park Babs' car?" Roy complained, Dick's reply cut off as the front door closed behind them. A childish wolf whistle from beside her distracted Barbara from her worry. "Now _that's_ a fine looking woman," James declared, crossing the room to give Dinah a hug. Dinah laughed. "Hey, Tater Tot! How's it going?" "Well, the 'rents had some lame music on the stereo all the way from Bludhaven-" James ignored Barbara's protest to this- "and I had to carry all these presents in, but otherwise, okay. How about you, Bird Babe?" Dinah lowered her voice. "Shhh. Don't tell anyone, but I think I'm pregnant." "Dinah! Don't encourage him!" Barbara objected, accepting a hug from her friend. "But he's right, you look great." "Yeah, if you count having no waist as looking great," Dinah snorted. "Isn't this just fabulous, though?" she asked, waving a hand to include everything around them. "It's beautiful, Dinah. It's just - perfect." Dinah's eyes were shining as she glanced at Bruce. "I know. But we can't just stand around the tree all day. Alfred has been baking Christmas cookies all day so that we could decorate them while he works on dinner." "Cookies?" Lian perked up, looking up from the train controls she was examining. "To decorate, not to eat," Dinah admonished. "You just had lunch anyway. But why don't you and James go help Alfred color the icing?" "Okay. Come on, James." James hesitated until Barbara propelled him forward with a gentle hand on his back. "We'll catch up," she assured him. As soon as the kids were out of earshot, Dinah's face turned serious. "Is Dick okay, Babs? Really?" Barbara sighed. "He's got Batpower. He wants to do backflips to prove he's fine. Still has that gaping memory hole. Wanna tell me what he was up to, Bruce?" Bruce shook his head. "I'm sure that will be cleared up by this time tomorrow. But if you ladies will forgive me, I'm going to take a pass on the cookie decorating." Dinah looked for a moment like she was going to protest, but a look at Bruce persuaded her not to. "Okay, Bruce. You're off the hook. But don't be late to dinner or I'll send the kids after you. Come on, Babs." "You _so_ are not a better driver than me, Grayson!" came Roy's voice from down the hall, halting Dinah and Barbara. The response was Dick's laughter. "You go right on believing that, Roy." The two men emerged into the main hall, their arms again laden with gifts. "Dinah!" Dick called in greeting. "Let me just dump these packages so I can give you a hug." "Don't drop them, Dick, there's breakables-" "Relax, Roy." Dick lowered his parcels to the ground with exaggerated care and caught Dinah in a big bear hug. "Where're the kids?" "With Alfred. We're all going to decorate cookies," Barbara replied, heading her chair in the direction of the kitchen. "Wait for me," Roy called, racing ahead of Barbara. The foursome walked together, laughing and joking, although Dick paused at the hall door. "Coming, Bruce?" he asked. At Bruce's head shake, Dick shrugged and caught up with the others, leaving Bruce to listen to their trailing laughter. He stood in the now silent Christmas wonderland for a moment, lost in thought. A train whistle sounded again, and the circus train reappeared around the corner. Bruce watched it wind by and down another hallway, remembering how a ten-year-old Dick had jumped up and down with excitement that long ago Christmas when he unwrapped the box it came in. He watched the train for another moment, then turned and headed back to his study. End Part Four Ghosts of Christmas Present by Chicago Part 5: Oh Tannenbaum Lian looked up at the sound of adult laughter. "I still don't see why I had to sit at the kids' table," she sniffed, with an accusing look at James. "Well, it's not like _I_ wanted to sit here," James replied. "I normally always sit next to Dinah." "Hmph. Well, you wouldn't have tonight, because _I_ always sit next to Gramma Canary." James mouth was open for a hot retort when Alfred suddenly appeared at their table. "Master James, Miss Lian - it is highly inappropriate for guests to snipe at one another over dinner." James hung his head. "Sorry, Alfred," he mumbled. Lian, however, raised her chin defiantly. "But Alfie, I'm 11. That's double digits. I shouldn't be sitting with a _kid_." Alfred's hand was surreptitiously squeezing James shoulder as a restraint. "Miss Lian, had Master Tim and Miss Cassandra been here, I can assure you that they also would be sitting at this table." He ignored Lian's incredulous look, continuing smoothly, "But I suspect the problem is that you two have clearly finished your dinners and are bored. Perhaps you can persuade your parents to excuse you." Lian needed no further invitation, flying out of her seat to Roy's side. "Daddy, can we go play?" Roy turned from the table to his daughter's pleading expression and grinned. "It's fine by me, sweetheart. Wait - did you eat your vegetables?" "Dad-dy!" "You haven't eaten yours yet, Harper," Dick observed from across the table. Roy barely had time to pick up his spoon before Alfred's voice sounded directly behind him. "Master Roy, if you start a food fight at my table, you will be joining the children." Roy started and lowered his spoon, glaring at the smug expression on Dick's face. That expression faded, though, as Dick watched James approach the head of the table. "Bruce," the boy asked, "is it okay if we go play downstairs?" "Hey!" Dick exclaimed. "Shouldn't Barbara and I have a say in this?" James looked pointedly at his father. "Your house, your rules. _His_ house, _his_ rules." Dinah almost choked on her milk, and Barbara took one look at her husband's crestfallen face and could not contain her laughter. Roy guffawed heartily. "Oh, that's RICH. Didn't take him long to figure out the pecking order, did it, Robbie?" Bruce glanced around at this cheerful table and turned under the cover of their laughter to answer James. "What did Alfred say?" he asked "It was his idea," James answered. Alfred shook his head faintly to Bruce's inquiring glance as Barbara interjected, "Maybe downstairs isn't the best idea." "Well, James, it's my house, but she's still your mom, and I defer to a mother's better judgment." James stomped his foot. "Oh! Thanks a lot, Babs." "James," Dick warned, earning a nasty look from his son. Lian glanced anxiously from James to Dick, then grabbed James arm. "C'mon, James, we'll go play with the trains. That's okay, right, Bruce?" "That'd be fine," Bruce agreed mildly, noticing that though she addressed him, Lian's eyes were focused on Dick. Nonetheless, as soon as Bruce spoke, both children dashed away, disciplinary crisis averted. Dick shook his head and put his face in his hands for a moment. "That boy will be the death of me," he groaned. "Heh. Welcome to parenthood, Dick - the world's greatest roller coaster ride," Roy replied, dishing more potatoes onto his plate. Dick smiled wanly at his friend and waved off his silent offer to pass the potatoes. As the conversation moved on, he closed his eyes for a moment and rubbed the back of his head. A gentle touch on his right bicep opened his eyes, and he looked into his wife's concerned gaze. "I'm fine," he whispered, smiling as he kissed her forehead. "So what's the plan for the rest of the day?" he asked, raising his voice. Dinah's eyes flicked to Bruce, knowing he had gone over the schedule with Dick the day before and sensing his concern for his son. Bruce's jaw tightened slightly before he spoke, but he did not betray his worry. "Well, Tim and Cassandra should be here shortly for trimming the tree, and then we'll do our annual orphanage visit, and-" "Then we'll open presents?" Roy asked hopefully. "What?" he added, as everyone at the table turned to look at him. "On Christmas Eve?" Dick asked. "Fine." Roy slumped back in his chair. "I shoulda known you'd be Christmas Day sticklers," he grumbled. "Christmas Eve is for Santa Claus missions," Dick replied, a hint peeved. "We've been doing it since my first Christmas here." "Yeah, yeah, the sneaking into the orphanage, leaving the presents, yadda, yadda, yadda. It's a Bat thing, isn't it? Sneaking around, doing good, _maybe_ leaving a note. I tell you, Dinah, no sense of showmanship." "Oh, I don't know," Dinah replied mischievously, "there's things you can do with that cape..." "Stop! No! Too much information! La la la!" Roy had his fingers in his ears, his eyes wide in not-quite-mock panic. Dick stared at his friend, bemused, while Barbara gave Dinah a knowing smirk. Bruce was, as always, inscrutable. "Why, Roy, I was talking about scaring bad guys," Dinah said innocently. "What were _you_ thinking of?" Roy opened his mouth, but any words he might have come up with were cut off by the squeal of tires stopping hard and fast. He looked in alarm around the table, surprised to see only vague looks of resignation on the faces of his friends. "What the hell-?" It was Bruce who answered, clearly eager to be away from the table and its conversation. "Tim let Cassandra drive again. I should go greet them." Roy watched Bruce's retreating back. "Was he-?" "Probably wants to check that Cass didn't completely wreck the brakes," Dick said pointedly, closing down Roy's speculation. "Let's go check on the kids, Roy." Barbara smiled as Dick and Roy disappeared after Bruce. "I think you traumatized Roy." Dinah laughed. "Roy's been traumatized all day. I'm more worried that I upset Bruce." Barbara wheeled over to Dinah and set a hand on her shoulder. "Dinah, you're good for him. Besides, you noticed that Dick had his back." Dinah nodded, pulling herself to her feet and stretching her back. "Ugh. How many more months until I can see my feet again?" "At least one. C'mon, oh Walking House, let's go join the others." "Very funny, Babs." "You love it and you know it," Barbara replied, her eyes sparkling with fun as she wheeled out toward the entrance. Alfred had opened the door, and James stood right beside him as Tim and Cassandra entered. "-not designed to stop as fast as you can," Tim was saying. "I know you understand physics - there's inertia and-" "You said stop. I stopped." "You ignored the 'slow down' part be-" "Good evening, Master Tim, Miss Cassandra." "Hi, Al. Can someone please explain to her-" "You said stop." "Not -" Bruce stepped forward. "Glad you could make it, Tim. How are you, Cassandra?" Cassandra shot a scowl at Tim. "Fine." "Hey, Bruce. We gotta go back right after the orphanage thing, but Bert finally settled down for a nap, so here we are. Hi Dinah," Tim leaned over to kiss her forehead. "Hey, Cassandra, leave any rubber on the tires?" Dick asked, accepting her greeting punch to his palm and smiling away her concerned touch to his bandaged head. He reached up to throw an arm over Tim's shoulder in a brotherly embrace. "Hi, Tim." "Dick, she got the minivan to 60 on the _driveway_!" Tim exclaimed in exasperation. "It's a long driveway," James defended, taking Cassandra's hand. Cassandra looked down at James and flashed him her brightest smile. "Right. Long driveway." "It sure is," Roy interjected. "You shoulda seen me an' Dick when we -" He trailed off, noticing Bruce's interested expression and Dick's warning look. "When you and Dick what?" Bruce asked. "Um - nothing. Tim, Cassandra, good to see you!" Roy gave Cassandra his most winning smile as held out his palm for his greeting. "Always good to see someone making the best of having to drive a mini - hey!" "Back off, Harper," came a low growl, as Roy looked down to see that James had stepped between him and Cassandra. "Bodyguard," Cassandra explained with a shrug, setting a hand on James' shoulder. "Rude bodyguard," Barbara added, although her laughing tone destroyed any effort at reprimand. "Hi, Cass." "Look, a minivan is a practical vehicle. Bruce has minivans-" Tim was objecting. "It's okay, Uncle Robin," Lian comforted. "We all know you could kick everyone's butt if you wanted." Tim groaned. "Thanks, Lian - I think. Isn't anyone going to help me here? I mean, driving is a big responsibility, and all those rules are there for a reason, and-" "Poor Tim. An ever unheeded voice of reason." "Unless you want someone to run for Chinese for you," Dinah added, grinning. Tim sighed. "I can see how tonight's going to go. C'mon, Lian. Let's go look at the tree." "That perhaps might be a good place to this entire gathering," Alfred suggested, gently herding his family from the front door to the inviting red velvet settees and chairs that had been pulled away from the walls and assembled around the tree. Within the semicircle described by the chairs sat a large cardboard box. "What - box?" Cassandra asked, pointing at it. "It's a project of Alfred's and mine," Dinah explained, settling into a central chair and pulling the box closer to her. "We've been trying to get all the family Christmas stuff together in one place. Between our night jobs and the disasters of the past several years, it seems like forever since there's been any kind of real Christmas celebration. So much was lost in the quake or shuffled around in moving that Alfred and I decided that we should start centralizing any Christmas stuff we found - to bring some old memories to a new tradition." Dinah's speech quieted everyone, and Bruce set a hand on her shoulder, his eyes mild and shining. Roy cuddled Lian closer, while the Grayson men settled themselves on the floor around Barbara's chair, one leaning on each armrest. Tim wound his fingers into Cassandra's and she gave his hand a little squeeze. "Alfred, don't we have a camera somewhere?" Dinah asked. Alfred held one up. "Already thought of, Miss Dinah." "Alfred, you're the best. I want you to put up the first ornament." "Me? Miss Dinah-" But Alfred paused his protest when Dinah held up a small silver bell. "My word, Miss Dinah, I thought that long lost," Alfred's voice was almost a low whisper as he reverently accepted the bell. "What is it, Alfred?" Roy asked, curious. Alfred cleared his throat. "It's Master Bruce's christening bell. His parents had it made into an ornament to mark his first Christmas..." His voice trailed off as he stared at this treasure. "Where -?" Dinah shook her head. "In one of those million and one boxes of stuff the workmen sifted from the rubble of the old Manor." Her hand held Bruce's tightly, not daring to look at him for the lump in her throat. "Put it on the tree," she urged gently. The bell made a little tinkling sound as Alfred placed it on a bough, the only interruption of the silence. Then a flash and a camera click broke the quiet and everyone turned to Tim. "Hey, Alfred needs to get in some of these pictures," he defended himself. Dinah chuckled. "You're right, Tim. Okay, let's see what else is in this box." She peered into it for a moment, then said, "A ha!" She pulled out a two foot strand of plastic silver beads. "Mr. Grayson Sr., I believe these are yours." Dick was up instantly. "I can't believe you found these!" he exclaimed in delight as Tim and Barbara laughed. James stepped forward to inspect Dick's treasure. "That's pretty lame, Dick," he remarked. "Hey!" Dick protested. "I've been putting this on the tree since - gosh, as long as I lived here." "I did try to throw them away," Bruce pointed out. "They're pretty!" Dick insisted, his eyes caught by the chintzy sparkle. "Now would you define that as garland or as an ornament?" Roy asked. "I mean, it's not really long enough to be garland..." Dick stepped forward to arrange the beads on an open space in the tree. "I'd call it pretty," he said staunchly, stepping back. "Whatever," Roy snorted. "Pretty," Cassandra agreed, her head tilted to study the beads on the tree. "Thank you, Cassandra. I always knew you had taste, even if you do hang with Tim." "Hey!" Tim objected. "Let's see what else is in this box," Dinah interrupted, again rustling through tissue paper. Several more ornaments had been added to the tree when Dinah pulled out a small flat box with a frown. "I don't remember this one," she said. "Bruce, it has your name on it." She held it out for him, surprised to see him freeze. "Bruce?" In the joking and laughter that surrounded them, she thought for a moment that only she noticed his reaction as he slowly took the box from her fingers. Then Dick was at Bruce's side, his eyes riveted by the box. "Oh, Bruce," he whispered. The intense silence around these three gradually stilled the other conversation in the room. Bruce stared at the rough, childish handwriting that had scrawled his name on the top of this box years ago. It took all his will to keep his hands from trembling as he lifted the top and parted the red tissue paper that was folded over the object within. A small gasp escaped Dick as Bruce lifted the ornament by its string, an amazingly delicate glass snowflake. "It didn't break," Dick whispered. "It the quake, in the moving..." His voice trailed off as he stared at this small miracle. No one seemed willing to disturb the silence as the snowflake caught the Christmas lights and reflected bits of color around the room. Bruce's voice was gruff when he finally spoke. "James, come here." James responded promptly, but moved as if mesmerized by the light dancing on this snowflake. "Yes, sir," he said quietly. "James, this is your first Christmas in our family, so there won't be anything in this box for you to put on the tree." James nodded. "I know." "This-" Bruce paused, then began again. He could not bear to look around the room, to see the dawn of comprehension and hint of tears in Barbara's eyes, the commingled guilt and sadness in Dick's gaze. "The boy - my son - who gave this to me-" He had to pause again, and in the silence he heard a choked sob catch in Dinah's throat. "He can't- he-" James reached out to touch the hand that held the ornament. His eyes were serious. "Jason?" he asked softly. Bruce nodded slowly, his eyes locked with James'. A soft "oh" came from Lian's direction, but he did not turn to see Roy wrap his arms more tightly around his daughter. Nor did he take note of the hand Tim brought to his eyes, or the tightening of Cassandra's hold on Tim's other hand. "Do you want me to-?" "Please," Bruce answered, allowing James to lift the ornament string from his fingers and carry the delicate creation to the tree. James did not pause to consider where the ornament should go. He walked directly to Dick's string of beads and carefully hooked the snowflake on a bough just below. Satisfied that the ornament was secure, he stepped back and studied the arrangement critically for a moment. Below the gaudy flash of the beads, the snowflake seemed to give off an internal light. The incongruity, though, made it appear that the beads were shielding the snowflake - a sturdy outer armor for the more fragile element beneath. "Pretty," James finally announced, turning away. James surveyed the emotions on the faces of the people around him, seeing something familiar in the barely contained tears and distant stares. Alfred gave him a tight smile of approval, and even the old butler seemed barely in control of his features. James' eyes fell on Barbara, and she smiled at him through wet eyes. She held out her arms, and James crawled into her embrace, feeling a little less hollow in his heart than he had in months. He stayed in her lap as Dinah finally gathered herself and plunged back into the box, finding a plaster disk impressed with Lian's baby footprints and a Batarang on a string that Cassandra had presented to Bruce during her early years as Batgirl. When the box was finally empty, the tree had lost some of it's tasteful perfection. A neon orange toothbrush hung from one branch, compliments of Roy. Various school projects involving felt and toilet paper rolls and styrofoam cups and tissue paper dotted the boughs, mixed in among the elegant glass baubles. "It's so beautiful," Dinah sighed in satisfaction. Bruce laid his arm across her shoulders. "Yes it is," he agreed. "Not a bad first tree for the new Wayne-Lance family." Dinah smiled, wrapping her arms happily around her husband. "Wait - there's one more thing," Dick interrupted. "Spud." James grinned and dashed from the room, appearing a moment later with something in his hands. "Ready, Dick?" Dick nodded, kneeling to let James hop onto his shoulders. With careful movements, James shifted so that he stood on Dick's shoulders. Dick held the boy's right ankle tightly and stabilized his left as best he could with his splinted wrist. At James' signal, he carefully stood. "They've been practicing," Barbara reassured the others as James stretched for the top of the tree, although even she held her breath for a moment as she watched. "A tree-topper?" Roy asked. "Is it an angel or-" "Oh, Daddy, look!" Lian cried, hopping from foot to foot. "It's a bat and a canary!" As James was transferred surely to the ground, the others stared at the admittedly odd but fitting figure with which he had topped the tree. The black wings of a bat stretched out almost in echo of a traditional angel, and against the black, a gold canary soared. "That brings it all together," Dick said with satisfaction. "Now let's get some pictures so we can get going on our Santa Claus mission!" "Right," Dinah agreed briskly, gathering and arranging everyone in front of the tree. Bruce waited a moment, watching this flurry of activity in the main hall of his family home in wonder. "It is a beautiful tree," Alfred murmured at his elbow. "Yes, Alfred. And a beautiful family. Thank you." "Bruce, get over here," Dinah ordered, cutting off any reply Alfred might make. Smiling faintly, Alfred began setting the camera for a family portrait. End Part Five Ghosts of Christmas Present by Chicago Part 6: Out of the Mouths of Babes It had been a long day, Tim reflected as he pulled away from the curb. He had really begun to feel it as he and the others began their evening of sneaking gifts into the orphanage. It was always a tricky game, even if through the years the orphanage staff had become quite complicit with their vigilante Santa Clauses. The effort to pull off the annual stunt with a posse of people, hampered by disability, pregnancy and youth, had brought out the worrier in Tim. He still couldn't figure out how Dick and Bruce had managed to make it work at all, let alone as quietly and seamlessly as it had gone off. 'And that's why I'm still Robin,' he thought wryly. The atmosphere in the minivan was decidedly subdued as Tim navigated back toward the expressway out of downtown Gotham. On some level, he longed to stay with the others as they huddled around windows and a skylight, watching the excited children unwrap their gifts. He and Cass were expected home, however, and Bert would not forgive them if they were late. Plus he had agreed to see the two children strapped into the captain's chairs behind him safely into Alfred's hands. The quiet hum of road beneath tires was finally interrupted by Cassandra. "Little one - like Bert," she said, her eyes quickly moving to Tim's face and then looking away. "I know," Tim answered quietly, thinking of the toddler they'd seen emerging into the room where they'd set up their tree and gifts. He was a couple of years younger than Tim's brother, but he had that same beatific smile and those ever understanding eyes. The little boy had been clinging tightly to an old receiving blanket with chewed corners and frayed edges. Next year, Tim vowed, he'd make sure that there was a stuffed gator among the toys he donated to the Batfamily-as-Santa tradition. Next year and every year. "Uncle Tim?" Lian spoke up from her seat. "What's going to happen to those kids?" Tim took a deep breath, but he was beaten to an answer. "They get taken to foster parents, maybe," James was saying flatly. "And they'll stay with a family until they show up to school with bruises. And then there'll be another family, but it will only take one brother. And when the kids try to run away to be together, the cops will drag them to juvie. Or another group home. If they're smart, those kids will run away now." Tim glanced into the rearview mirror, watching as James turned to stare out the window at the passing pavement. "That's not really true, is it, Uncle Tim?" Lian asked, casting a disdainful look at James before turning hopefully to Tim. Again Tim readied himself to speak, and again he was cut off. "Smart kids learn streets." Cassandra commented cryptically. Tim glanced over. "Cass?" he asked, but she had turned toward the back seat. "But-" Lian protested. Cassandra stilled her with a head shake. "I learn. My father like your mother. Be happy - you have Daddy." In the rearview mirror, Tim caught the bewildered fascination on Lian's face. She had really had next to no contact with Cassandra, and Tim doubted that Roy knew enough to draw this connection for his daughter. "Your father," she breathed, "is an assassin?" Cassandra nodded. "Best. He made me." After another moment's pause, Cassandra turned back to her window. Tim signaled and moved into the exit lane for Bristol. "Tim." Now James' voice broke the silence. "Has Dick really been doing this every Christmas?" "Ever since I've known him, James. Him and Bruce." "Why?" Tim paused, sensing there might be more weight to this question than there appeared. "The way Dick explained it to me," he began, "there was an orphanage fire on Christmas Eve the first year that Dick was living with Bruce. Dick was in the Child Welfare Services system for a while, you know, and he said it just made him so sad and angry that these kids had lost everything and were losing Christmas, too, that he begged Bruce to let him do something." "So they took them presents?" "They took them Dick's presents," Tim replied. A faint gasp came from Lian. "Uncle Wing gave away his own presents? I don't know if I could do that." In the rearview mirror, Tim saw James give her a disgusted look. "Yeah, I bet you couldn't," he muttered. "When the next Christmas came around," Tim continued, hoping to forestall the potential argument in the back seats, "Dick presented Bruce with a complete plan of how they would visit the orphanage again, and Bruce says he just went along with it." "Bruce - hides feelings," Cassandra interjected, the unexpected understatement almost startling Tim from his narrative. "Yeah. Anyway, after that it's been every year. I have a feeling Dick might have just gone himself during No Man's Land, but otherwise, each year they've gotten together in Gotham on Christmas Eve. Last few years Dick would come by before or after his police shift. I still don't know quite how he got both Christmas Eve and Christmas Day off this year." "He fell off a fire escape," James said flatly. "He did not!" Lian objected hotly. "Uncle Wing never falls!" Tim noted with relief that he was almost to the Wayne driveway. "Kids," he warned, but he was ignored. "He did fall! He slipped on a stupid patch of ice, okay?" Ice. Tim remembered the ice storm that had left Gotham slickly treacherous the night before. He himself had had trouble keeping his footing on patrol. It was the kind of accident that would hurt Nightwing's pride - no wonder Tim had not been given a full explanation of how Dick had been hurt. "He did not! He doesn't slip." "He did slip! He slipped and he fell and he didn't call home." Tim hadn't heard that detail, yet, either. "Kids," he said again, beginning the ascent to Stately Wayne Manor. "I'm telling you, Nightwing doesn't fall and he doesn't not call home. I've known him longer than you, so I should know," Lian argued stubbornly. "Faster, Tim," Cassandra urged quietly. For once, Tim agreed. This was getting ugly fast, and Alfred would know how to handle it. He sped up his usually very cautious pace. "Well, for someone who thinks she knows so much about superheroes, you're dumb. Heroes can fall and get hurt just like ordinary people!" "I'm NOT dumb! Just because you grew up on the streets and all that you think you've seen so much and you're all tougher or better than everyone else or something. Well, I'm tough! I'm so tough I'm going to be my daddy's sidekick and-" "And what? Make his job more dangerous?" "James! Lian!" Tim barked, taking the final switchbacks of the driveway as fast as he dared. He should just stop the van, he thought, stop this argument - but they were so close to home. In the rearview mirror he could see hot-tempered scowls on the faces of both children. "I am a trained superhero! Daddy's been-" "You're no superhero," James scoffed. "You're a kid." "Daddy says-" Lian sounded about to cry. "Then your daddy's dumb." Fury rose in Lian's eyes at this slight. For the second time that evening, Tim's minivan halted with a screech in front of Wayne Manor. In the sudden complete silence, Lian's words hissed coldly. "Well, maybe if Nightwing was your REAL daddy, you could be a sidekick, too." James' face grew pale, and he glanced wildly around the confines of the minivan. Both Tim and Cassandra turned, but in their shock, neither was quick enough to grab for the boy as he slipped free of his seatbelt, jerked open the van door, and dashed for the opening Manor door. "James!" Tim called as he reached, too late, for the escaping boy. "Dammit," he cursed, practically ripping himself from the driver's seat to go after his adoptive nephew. Cassandra shook her eyes from Tim's departing form to look at the girl in the seat behind her. Lian slammed her fists down on either side of her, her eyes wild and glistening with tears. "Damn!" she swore, then looked up almost fearfully at Cassandra. Cassandra met the Lian's eyes evenly, holding her gaze. "I - I didn't mean-" Lian stammered, tears beginning to flow. Cassandra reached out uncertainly to touch Lian's cheek. "Words - hurt." Lian stiffened. Words hurt. Was there sympathy in Cassandra's voice? Or condemnation? She couldn't tell. She pulled away from the gentle touch to her cheek, stiffening in her seat. She could not go back into the Manor and face James, could not face her father when he heard what she had said, could not face Uncle Nightwing. Through the blood pounding in her ears, she heard Tim return to the van. "I told Alfred what happened. He said to let him be." Cassandra's reply came through muffled. "Lian sad." Lian felt Tim glance at her, and in the moment she allowed herself to focus on him, her sobs renewed themselves. She couldn't understand the look he gave her or his gentle tone. "C'mon, Lian," he was urging, "you're just tired. Let's get you inside-" "NO!" she yelled, holding herself more tightly to the seat. "I can't-" she wept. She squeezed her eyes closed, but she could not stem her tears. She sensed rather than heard a presence slide into the van next to her. "Master Tim, Miss Cassandra," Alfred was saying, "if you would be kind enough to excuse Miss Lian and me for a moment." As she heard Tim and Cassandra leave the van, Lian turned her face away from the van door, her eyes still tightly closed. She had no idea what Alfred intended to do or say, but she knew she could not bear to see the sad disappointment in his eyes. End Part Six Ghosts of Christmas Present by Chicago Part 7: The Wisdom of Elders The squeal of brakes caught Alfred as he was making a few additions to the pile of gifts under the tree. Quickly straightening up as if caught in mischief, he crossed to the front door. He barely had it open before a blur of sobbing child rushed by him, heading blindly in the general direction of Bruce's den. "James!" he heard Tim yell, and in seconds the young man followed his quarry through the Manor door. "Trouble, Master Tim?" Alfred asked as Tim stopped to stare around the foyer urgently. "The kids had a fight. I need to find-" "Let him go, Master Tim." "Dick's gonna kill me," Tim moaned, fidgeting uneasily. "Master Tim, I assure you that Master Dick knows both you and his son, and I scarcely think he will hold you accountable for a child's fight. Is Miss Lian all right?" Tim glanced back at the van, noticing that neither Cassandra nor Lian had emerged. "I don't know. I mean, she's not injured. They were saying the meanest things to each other - not just playground stuff -" "Master Tim, calm yourself." Tim blinked and stared at Alfred, drawing a deep breath as he took in the old man's steadying expression. "That's better. Now perhaps you can tell me what started this so I can deal with the children while you and Miss Cassandra head home to your brother and father." Alfred spoke without recrimination, and Tim found himself again marveling at the unruffled calm which Alfred brought to any crisis. What had started the fight? "They were arguing about Nightwing." Alfred raised an eyebrow. "Indeed. A sensitive topic for our Master James." Tim nodded, thinking over the details of James' story. "Did he really not call home, Alfred?" Something unsettled flickered in Alfred's eyes. "It is not my place to discuss what did or did not happen last night, Master Tim, but I begin to see why Master James may be so upset. Where did this fight lead?" "James insulted Lian, then he said Roy was dumb-" "And Miss Lian retaliated. And it appears she has some regrets," Alfred added, gazing out at the van. "Give me a moment, Master Tim, and I will come talk to her." Tim nodded gratefully and returned to the van while Alfred quickly checked that James had escaped to the Cave. Assured that the boy had remained true to form in his choice of hiding place and would come to no harm, Alfred walked out to the driveway to deal with Lian. He heard her yell, "NO!" as he approached, and saw Tim and Cassandra look at each other helplessly. Lian was sitting rigid in the minivan, tears streaming down her cheeks, as she whispered, "I can't-" Alfred slipped into the van through the still open sliding door, his eyes seeking Lian's. She turned away, unwilling to meet his gaze. Alfred repressed the urge to sigh. He'd dealt with this kind of anguished fit before. "Master Tim, Miss Cassandra," he said, "if you would be kind enough to excuse Miss Lian and me for a moment." With mixed expressions of relief and concern, the young couple walked up to the Manor, leaving Lian to Alfred. Sitting on the van floor, back propped against the front passenger seat, Alfred studied Lian and considered his next words. He rested a gentle hand on her knee, hoping to draw her eyes to his face. "Miss Lian," he said, "would you like to tell me what happened?" "You know," she said, her eyes still squeezed shut and her head turned away. "James told you." "Master James has not said a word to me, Miss Lian. And it looks to me that you both gave as good as you got." This uncharacteristic phrase and the hint of humor in Alfred's tone had the effect that his gentleness had not - Lian turned incredulously to look at the old butler. His hand had left her knee to fetch a handkerchief from his jacket pocket and offer it to her. This she ignored, looking past his outstretched hand to his face. His eyes held only quiet concern. "Miss Lian?" "Oh, Alfred!" she cried, new tears welling in her eyes. "James just made me so angry, and-" Alfred pressed the handkerchief into her hand and pulled himself into James' abandoned seat. "Shhh, child, it is all right." "It's not all right, Alfred!" Lian wailed, balling the handkerchief in her fist. "I said - I told him - Alfred," Lian could not bring herself to repeat the awful phrase. Alfred sat silent as Lian tried to regain her composure. Then: "What did you say, Miss Lian?" Lian twisted the handkerchief, staring down into it rather than into Alfred's face. "I said Nightwing wasn't his real daddy," she confessed in a whisper. "Oh my. That was a bit thoughtless, wasn't it?" Alfred replied. "I didn't mean it! He just - he was mean about Daddy! I had to say something. I just didn't mean-" Alfred leaned toward her, resting a reassuring hand on her shoulder. "What didn't you mean, Miss Lian?" he asked gently. She pulled away, unable to bear the old man's concern. "I didn't mean to hurt his feelings. I mean I did want to hurt his feelings, but not like that." She mopped the handkerchief across her face, then lifted her gaze hopefully to Alfred's face. "Can you fix it? I don't know where he went, and-" "Fix it, Miss Lian? I can talk to Master James, yes. But fix it? I'm afraid this old man has a mixed track record for fixing things." "No you don't. You can fix anything! Uncle Dick always says that - and Uncle Tim. And Gramma Canary. And Sp- James. Everyone knows!" Alfred smiled at Lian's childish confidence, although his heart ached at his unworthiness for such faith. "Well, Miss Lian," he began, rising to his feet as best he could in the cramped space of the van, "in that case I shall endeavor to soothe Master James. But I am afraid I cannot do so with you still sitting here in Master Tim's minivan." Lian face turned downcast again. "I have to face him, don't I?" Alfred stepped free of the van and held his hand out to Lian. "The journey of a thousand miles, Miss Lian," he prompted. "Begins with a single step," she answered. She released her seatbelt and took a deep breath. Then she accepted Alfred's hand and allowed him to help her step down. "He won't accept my apology," she sighed in resignation. "Perhaps not, Miss Lian. I cannot pretend to know the workings of Master James' heart. But can you withhold your apology just because he may not accept it?" She shook her head as they mounted the steps to the Manor. "I really messed up," she sniffled. Alfred nodded sagely as he opened the Manor door for her. "Treat it as a life lesson, Miss Lian. Our words can be as deadly as any weapon we wield." "God knows I've had to learn that lesson the hard way," Tim added as Alfred followed Lian in. "Yes," Cassandra agreed. "Tim is foot-mouth." Lian blinked at Cassandra, smiling in spite of herself. "Yes, foot-mouth," Alfred mused. "Miss Cassandra, as always, you have described Master Tim most succinctly." "Alfred!" Tim objected. "Is it abuse Tim night?" "It most assuredly will be at the Drake household," Alfred decreed, "if you make young Master Bertram wait much longer to open his presents." "Right! C'mon, Cassandra. Lian, we'll see you tomorrow. Alfred." "Have a good evening, Master Tim, Miss Cassandra." "Bye, Alfred. I drive." "Uhn uh. No way." "Late. You slow. I drive," Cassandra insisted as Alfred closed the door behind the arguing pair. The smile had faded from Lian's face. "Where's James?" she asked anxiously. "I suggest we do not look for him now, Miss Lian. But we should get you ready for bed." "Are you going to tell Daddy what I did?" "I will leave that decision to you, Miss Lian." "And Uncle Dick?" Alfred hesitated, then knelt down to Lian's eye level. "Miss Lian, Master Dick will need to know what has upset Master James. If it is any comfort, I think Master James is more angry with Master Dick than he is with you." "Angry with Uncle Dick? Why?" "He fell, Miss Lian. But trust me that eventually all will be well again. It will not be an easy night, but all will eventually be well again." Lian nodded, not really understanding. She was suddenly aware of being incredibly tired. "Can we go get ready for bed now?" she asked. A faint smile crossed Alfred's face as he stood again and took Lian's hand. "Of course." The pair was half way up the stair case when voices and laughter began echoing through the halls from the direction of the garage entrance. "Did you see that little girl when she saw that dress?" "I told you clothes would be a good idea, Dinah." "Shows what I know - I always hated clothes for Christmas as a kid." "I think the Batman action figure was the hit of the evening." "Dinah...." "Don't say anything Babs." "Well if we do this again next year -" Roy was saying as the group emerged into the entranceway. "Daddy!" Lian cried, practically flying into her father's arms. "Hi, pumpkin! Well, this is quite the greeting!" Roy exclaimed, wrapping his girl in a bear hug. "Hey, Al!" Dick called. "Where's Spud?" "Master James has decided to spend some time downstairs, Master Dick." "In the Cave? Alfred?" "Everything okay, Alfred?" Bruce asked. "We've had a bit of an adventure this evening, Master Bruce, but nothing that cannot be mended." Roy glanced at the others in the room and rubbed his daughter's back as Lian still clung to him. At Alfred's words, he thought he heard her sniffle. "Lian?" he asked, leaning his head back as if to look at the face that rested on his shoulder. Lian lifted her head and looked into her father's eyes, tears again threatening. "Sweetheart, what's wrong?" Definite sniffles came from the girl now. "Daddy," she began, "me and James had the most awful fight, and..." Her face scrunched up, tears now falling freely. Dick looked grimly at the sobbing Lian. "I'll go get James-" "Master Dick." Dick started at the restraining hand on his arm and gave Alfred a bewildered look. Barbara wheeled forward. "What is it, Alfred?" Alfred did not move, but he raised his voice. "Master Roy, I apologize that I do not have Miss Lian ready for bed, but I imagine that now that you are here, she would prefer that you supervise the evening ritual of toothbrushing and facescrubbing. Master Bruce, Miss Dinah, there is food ready for you on the kitchen table." Without a word, the others melted from the room, leaving Alfred alone with Dick and Barbara. "Alfred?" Dick asked, his tone worried. "It seems our Master James took his van ride home as the time to release some of his anger over your adventures from last night, Master Dick." Dick closed his eyes. "Oh," he whispered, almost visibly slumping. Barbara took Dick's hand. "Alfred, what happened?" "It is as Miss Lian said - the two children got into an argument, and I believe both said things they regret. As soon as they arrived here, Master James ran straight to the Cave. Miss Lian would not leave the van." "Man, what did they say to each other?" Dick asked, not sure he wanted the answer. "Alfred?" The old man studied the young couple before him for a moment. He met Barbara's eyes, and seeing the heavy weight of concern she carried for her family, he made a decision. "They were - unkind - to one another. There is no need to repeat what they said, unless one of them should choose to share it with you." "Should I-" Barbara began, but Alfred shook his head. "I will go fetch him now, Miss Barbara, but I think it best if we let him continue to believe that I am the only one who knows of his hiding place." Barbara nodded and looked to Dick. He still stood with his eyes closed, faint smudges of exhaustion shadowing them. Long familiarity with his face let her read the traces of doubt and self-recrimination that haunted him now. "Dick?" she prompted. "Yeah, that's prob'ly best," Dick murmured, opening his eyes. "Thanks, Alfred." Alfred waited a moment, reading familiar and unwelcome emotions in Dick's eyes. "You two should get some food," he directed. "I'll bring Master James to you when he's ready to leave the Cave." "Thanks, Alfred," Barbara acknowledged. "Come on, Dick." Alfred watched the pair move slowly toward the kitchen, then he turned toward the den. With measured steps, he entered the den, opened the clock, and made his way to the Cave floor. Without hesitating, he walked past the Batcomputer and down an infrequently used side corridor, finally stepping into the middle of one relatively empty cavern. Once there, he simply stood and waited, knowing the faint sniffling he heard was coming from one of the dark niches that lined the walls. Finally, James' bleary voice emerged from the shadows. "Why do they do it, Alfred? Why?" Alfred sighed. "Master James, it is who they are. To take it away from them would be to destroy them." "But he's going to die! He's going to walk out one day, and something's going to happen, and - and -" Whatever James had meant to say was choked off by sobs. Alfred, feeling suddenly weary, knelt down on the cold stone floor of the cavern. "James," he said softly, "come here." There was quiet for a moment, then James stepped into the dim light, his eyes and face reddened from crying. Alfred silently held his arms open for the boy, and James rushed forward, burying his face in Alfred's apron. "I don't want him to die! I don't want him to be like everyone else, all cold and dead! He's supposed to be my daddy, not Nightwing. Anything but Nightwing!" Alfred slowly rocked, his chin resting on the top of James' head, absorbing the boy's sobs. Finally it comes, he thought, feeling months of tangled anger and fear and desire flowing from this child, his surrogate - great-grandson? Another time, the thought might have coaxed a smile onto his features, but not now. He continued to rock James until his sobbing slowed to an occasional hiccough, running a gentle hand over his back. "James," he whispered. "Yes, Alfred," came the muffled reply. "Do you remember when you first came to the Manor, the story you told me about Nightwing?" Alfred could feel the boy's eyes squeeze shut as new tears began to fall. He nodded mutely against the butler's chest. "You believed that Nightwing found parents for boys like you, remember?" Again a nod. "Would you take that hope away from another little boy?" James leaned back, staring wide-eyed into Alfred's gentle expression. He remembered cold nights in abandoned apartments, the tight knot of hunger in his belly, and his brother's voice trying to lull him to sleep. "Tell me about Nightwing," James would ask, and Scorch - Scott, he corrected himself - would weave tales of mommies and daddies waiting to adopt half-grown little boys, waiting only for Nightwing to find those little boys and bring them home. "I will not tell you he will not die," Alfred continued, "but we all die sometime. Even weary old butlers like me. However, I doubt there is a vigilante anywhere so well looked out for as your father. He has you, and me, and your mother, and Master Bruce - and there alone is an army worth living for! No, I cannot say he will not die," Alfred paused here to wipe a tear from James face, "but I can say he would never leave you alone to face the night." James stared into Alfred's eyes for a long silent moment, then grabbed him fiercely in a tight bear hug. Alfred held the boy with equal tightness for a several beats, then loosened his hold. "Your parents are worried about you," he said softly. He felt James start guiltily in his arms. "They're home?" "Yes. And Miss Lian was quite upset-" "She was mean," James sniffed. "As, so I understand, were you, Master James," Alfred reprimanded mildly. James sat up and wiped his nose on his sleeve. "I should go upstairs now, eh?" "Well, you should use a handkerchief first," Alfred suggested, holding one out pointedly. James managed a weak grin as he scrubbed at his face. "If you say so, Alfred. But then what are sleeves for?" "Rapscallion!" Alfred exclaimed. "Help an old man to his feet here, Master James." James held out his hand, making a great show of bracing himself as Alfred stood. "Thank you, sir," Alfred remarked dryly, pocketing the handkerchief James returned. "Now, we should return you to your parents and get you ready for bed. Santa can't come if you're blocking his route through the Cave." "I thought Santa came down the chimney," James said suspiciously, playing along. "Old wives' tale," Alfred replied, taking James hand and leading him back to the stairs to the Manor. "And the North Pole stuff?" "Old wives' tale." "And the elves?" "Old butlers' dream." End Part Seven Ghosts of Christmas Present by Chicago Part 8: The Power of Daddies "Under the covers with you, kiddo! It's well past time for all superhero sidekicks to be in bed," Roy declared, holding up the blankets as Lian scrambled under them. His smile faded, though, as he began to settle the covers around her face and saw new tears welling in his daughter's eyes. "Lian?" "I don't know if I want to be a sidekick, Daddy," she said seriously. Roy felt a vague sense of panic at the sting of these words. As much as he doubted he would ever seriously allow Lian to become his sidekick, it was still part of their father-daughter schtick, a bonding game from her youngest years. "What do you mean, sweetheart? Does this have something to do with your fight with James?" Lian had remained close-mouthed about what had happened, appearing to accept her father's comfort without wishing to talk about it. Roy knew his daughter well enough to know she would tell him in time and had not pushed her. This statement, though, so out of the blue, alarmed him. Lian nodded. "James said sidekicks make things more dangerous." She looked away and rubbed at her eyes. Roy sat silent for a moment, knowing precisely why James would make such a statement. He also found himself thinking further back, remembering frustrated conversations at the Titans Tower on this very subject. Then, however, he had been a sidekick himself, in the company of other sidekicks all desperate to prove their worth and valor in a grown up world of crime and danger. Then, the mantle of sidekick was the surest sign of love they had from their respective mentors. Now? Now he was a father, and he could see the other side of things. How could those same mentors bear to risk them, night after night, day after day? Grown now, the former Titans shied away from this topic as surely as they threw themselves into their continuing fight for justice. He did not know how to answer Lian. "Daddy?" Roy focused his eyes on his daughter's face as she looked searchingly at him. "I'm sorry, Lian. Is that what got you so upset?" Lian started to nod, then shook her head. "He - he said you were dumb -" Roy managed a chuckle at that. "He did, did he? Did you defend the Harper family honor?" he asked, smoothing Lian's hair. To his dismay, Lian's eyes only welled again. "I got so mad, Daddy! I said - I told him -" "Shhh. Sweetheart, it's okay. We all say things we regret. If I had a nickel for every mean thing I ever said to Dick - well, it'd probably work out even between us. And we're still friends at the end of the day. You'll apologize in the morning and everything will be better." "Daddy!" Lian protested. "You didn't hear what I said. It was so mean! I made him cry, made him run away-" "He only ran to the Cave, Lian." Roy stopped, seeing that his efforts to soothe were only upsetting his daughter further. Pausing for a moment, he made a decision. "Sit up, there, Lian," he directed. Lian obeyed, and Roy settled down next to her on the bed, his back resting against the headboard. He wrapped his arms around his daughter as she rested her head against his chest. "You wanna tell me about it?" he asked gently. She hesitated, and Roy listened closely when she finally spoke, barely audibly. "I told him he could be a sidekick if Uncle Wing was his real daddy." The orphan heart of Roy Harper flinched at this revelation. The fatherly wisdom in him realized a moment for honesty. "Lian, I always thought that if Ollie was my real daddy, he would never let me be his sidekick." Lian shot a puzzled look at Roy. He gave her a squeeze. "Sweetheart, there are many things in this world that I am willing to risk for the sake of justice. But of all the things I love in this world, you are my rarest treasure, the one thing that I could not possibly live without. You already are my sidekick and partner, the person who gives me reason to fight on when I'm tired and feel like giving up. You have been that since the day you came into my life, and you always will be. I want you to grow to be a strong and independent woman, able to defend yourself and make your own decisions about life. But dress you up in kevlar and put you on the front lines? I could not stop you if that is the path your life takes, but I could never bear to risk losing you in that way." Lian sat quietly listening to her father's speech through his chest, his words mingling with the sounds of his heart beat and the air filling and leaving his lungs. She closed her eyes, letting the quiet music of her father wash over her, feeling warm and safe in his strong embrace. Unbidden, James angry words came back to her: *"...he fell and he didn't call home."* Involuntarily, she wrapped her arms more tightly around her daddy, fighting the fear that echoed in her head. Roy returned her tightened embrace, softly stroking her hair as he lapsed into silence. Both father and daughter sat wrapped in their own thoughts, drawing strength and comfort from each other's presence. "I love you, Lian," Roy whispered. Her voice came quiet and sleepy. "Love you, too, Daddy." He smiled faintly. "Ready for sleepy time?" he asked softly. He felt her nod, and he gently disentangled himself from her, settling her back beneath the covers. She snuggled deeply into the blankets, already half asleep. He leaned over to kiss her forehead. "G'night, sweetheart." "Night, Daddy," she murmured, her eyes falling closed and her breathing deepening into sleep. Roy tiptoed from the room, pausing for a moment at the door before he switched off the light and made his way downstairs. After the quiet of the upstairs, the kitchen seemed loud and busy. Dinah and Barbara were telling a tangled version of some Christmas years earlier, in the early days of their partnership. The story involved Dick trying to get a Christmas tree on top of the Clocktower to surprise Barbara, Dinah's aggravation at being in a foreign land with no butts to kick, and Barbara's issues with her supposedly "Batproof" security system. Roy hesitated for a moment before entering the room, watching the tableau before him. Both Dinah and Barbara were laughing as they talked on top of one another in their effort to get all the details into the story, but there was something brittle about the laughter. At the head of the small kitchen table sat Mr. Bruce Wayne, looking very much lord of the Manor, a faint smile on his features. The smile, however, did not seem to touch his eyes, which were focused on the young man picking at his food at the foot of the table. Dick looked terrible. He was smiling and nodding as the two women teased him about the tree exploit, occasionally laughing as if on cue. His air of forced cheer just made him seem more vulnerable. Roy had been in the hero business long enough - had known Dick Grayson long enough - to know that Dick was just tired and achy and probably stubbornly refusing to give in to a need for rest, but he knew the tension around the room from his own experience. He had been the center of that kind of tension before - the unspoken reminder of how close they all came on a daily basis to losing one another. It was easier to forget when everyone was whole and healthy, but Dick's pallor and the bandages around his head filled the room like a ghost of might-have-been. Here sits Dick Grayson, who left several pints of blood running through the rain gutters of Bludhaven one hot night last August and very nearly never came home. Roy suppressed a shudder, wrapped himself in the lingering warmth of his daughter's embrace, and stepped into the kitchen. "Hey, Roy, glad you could join us," Dick called. "Pull up a chair, have some eats." Roy grinned. "Leave anything for me, Robbie?" Dick chuckled. "Hey, I'm not Wally. How's Lian?" "Sleeping. Kid had a long day. And man, I'm not sure if she gets her temper from me or her mother, but man- how's James?" Dick glanced at Barbara, who answered, "Alfred hasn't brought him up yet, Roy, but I'm sure he's fine." "Yeah," Dinah added. "He's just cultivating a Batworthy stubborn streak." "Hey!" Bruce objected, surprising Roy in what seemed to be a move to shift the conversation away from a source of worry. "There's nothing wrong with developing strength of will." Dinah kissed his cheek. "You're cute, Bruce." Dick snorted. "Not the word I'd use-" "Master Dick, Miss Barbara," Alfred's voice interrupted, drawing all eyes to him and the rumpled little boy who held his hand, "I believe it is past Master James' bedtime." Dick smiled and held out a hand. "C'mere, Spud." James walked over and accepted a hug which he did not return. "You okay?" Dick asked. James studied Dick's face intently for a moment. He replied in an almost challenging tone, "_You_ okay, Dick?" As Roy watched this exchange he thought to the fight this boy had had with his daughter. James was still scared, he realized, lashing out as blindly as Roy himself used to lash out. "Well, Spud, I've seen better days," Dick admitted with a rueful chuckle. "You ready for me to take you up to bed?" James startled everyone by shaking his head. "Babs," he insisted, moving himself to Barbara's side and leaning his head to her shoulder. "Well, how do I rate?" Barbara exclaimed, trying to make light of the situation. "Well, hustle on ahead of me, young camper, and power up the elevator," she ordered, sending James scurrying from the room. She gave Dick's hand a quick squeeze as she rolled by, hoping to shake him from the mask that had dropped over his emotions at his son's rejection. He offered her a weak smile and an "I'm fine," and she wheeled out, not believing him. End Part Eight Ghosts of Christmas Present by Chicago Part 9: The Strength of Mommies Barbara sighed as she tucked "'Twas the Night Before Christmas" back into her bag. She had not even realized it was packed among their things until James had requested it this evening. She had been more surprised to see him mouth the words as she read, but she realized that he was not going to explain how he knew the story. He had been uncharacteristically clingy after Alfred had brought him up from the Cave. He spoke only enough to communicate what he wanted, seeming fitful and feverish even though his skin was cool to the touch. Barbara was not sure if it made her worry less or more, the fact that she had seen him like this before. The book put away, she paused for a moment of quiet solitude in the room she shared with Dick whenever they stayed at the Manor. She was tired. As wonderful as it was to be a part of the first Wayne-Lance family Christmas, at this moment she would almost rather be home, badgering her husband to get more sleep and playing quiet board games with her son. She closed her eyes and propped her head on her fingers as she rested her elbow on the armrest of her chair. For not the first time, she found herself wishing she could rid her family dynamics of their Bat-derived element. "Long day, Mama Bird?" Dinah's voice startled Barbara upright. "Oh! Hi, Dinah. Off to bed so early?" "It's after 11, Babs. Time for me and my belly to crash for the night. You okay?" Barbara nodded. "Just having a day where I feel like I have two kids and no husband," she answered with a rueful laugh. Dinah entered and sat on the bed across from where Barbara sat in her chair. "Wanna borrow Alfred for a while when you go home?" Barbara laughed at the joking offer. "And know that you and Bruce are starving to death because neither of you can boil water? I don't think so." "We can order in. It'd be cozy." "Then you'd call me at 3 AM because the wonder twins there weren't so keen on chicken curry. And then you'd tell me that since you couldn't sleep, you were reading another parenting magazine and are convinced you exposed them to something that will cause a horrible birth defect because you were in Rheelasia during your first trimester." "I wasn't in Rheelasia in my first trimester. Cordova, yes, but not Rheelasia." Her eyes widened. "Do you think I exposed -?" "NO, Dinah. You're fine. The kids are fine. We're all fine. Even old Grim-and-Grumpy seems in decent spirits." "He knows we call him that, you know." Barbara chuckled. "Of course he does. He's-" "-Batman!" they finished together, laughing. "Speaking of Batman, how's our mini-Bruce doing?" "James?" Barbara sighed. "When he gets like this, I think he's trying to out-Bruce Bruce. Dick doesn't really need that right now, no matter how well I see James' point." "He's pretty upset with him, isn't he?" Barbara snorted. "That's an understatement. It's like August all over again. Y'know what he asked me right before he went to sleep?" Dinah shook her head, her face wearing a look of trepidation. "He wanted me to promise I would keep Dick from going on patrol tonight." "Did you?" "Dinah, I told him I'd try, but you know Dick." "I also know Bruce," Dinah replied seriously. Barbara stared at her for a moment, reading her meaning from her eyes. "Maybe I better get downstairs." "Yeah, probably a good idea. They won't get into it with Roy there, but I imagine he'll be ready to head for bed soon. I'd go back down with you, but Papa Bat _sent_ me to bed." Barbara raised an eyebrow. "And you let him?" she teased. Dinah patted her belly, a smug smile on her features. "He just doesn't realize I'm saving up all my annoyance at him for the delivery room." "Ouch. Don't be too hard on him, Dinah." "Yeah, I know. He just loves me. Save that speech for Dick. I have a feeling you're going to need it." Barbara smiled and held out her arms to give Dinah a hug. "Sleep well, Dinah. And thanks." "Hey," Dinah said as she returned Barbara's hug and then straightened, "What are mothers-in-law for?" "Ha ha. Go to bed. I'm off to the lion's den." "Good luck." "I'll take all I can get." Barbara waved good night to Dinah and rolled to the elevator, chewing thoughtfully on her lower lip. She wheeled out on the first floor just as Alfred was passing through with a tray of tea and coffee. "Miss Barbara, our party has retired to the west den. I was just heading there if you care to join me?" "Thanks, Alfred," she replied, swinging alongside him and matching his pace. "Did you get Master James off to sleep?" "Yeah, finally. He's had a tough 24 hours." "Indeed. But Miss Barbara, I think I can safely say the young man has turned a corner." "What happened, Alfred?" "He talked about it, Miss Barbara - not well, not easily - but the floodgates are beginning to open." A relieved smile broke across Barbara's face. "Thank you, Alfred," she breathed. Alfred paused well short of the den entrance. "No, Miss Barbara, thank you. Thank you for trusting me, for giving me a chance to redeem myself for past mistakes with heartbroken children." Barbara stared at Alfred, blinking back her tears. "Oh, Alfred! Why must you always have a tea tray in your hands when I most want to hug you!" A small smile crossed Alfred's face, mirroring the emotion in his eyes. "Why, Miss Barbara? I'm the butler." Not pausing to allow a rejoinder, Alfred continued on his way to the den, setting his tray down on a low, broad coffee table which stood between rich leather furniture and the cheery fire crackling in the fireplace. Barbara wheeled in behind him, slipping her chair in between the couch where Roy sprawled and the easy chair which Dick inhabited. While Roy pounced on the tea tray and Alfred paused to murmur something to Bruce, she took her husband's splinted hand and kissed him. "James asleep?" he asked softly, his lips still near hers. She nodded and leaned forward a bit more, so their foreheads touched. "I was thinking we could maybe call it a night, too?" Something flashed in his eyes, but his tone remained mild. "I'm kind of enjoying just hanging out around this fire. But you look tired. Do you want to head up now, and I'll come up later? No sense your staying up on my account." Barbara bit back an angry retort, upset that her ploy had backfired. She should have realized that under the cover of easy conversation, Dick and Bruce were already locked in a battle of wills. This was confirmed when Bruce responded to Dick's final words: "It wouldn't be the first time." Roy looked quickly from Dick to Bruce, as if suddenly realizing what he was in the middle of. His eyes rested desperately on Barbara's for a split second before he threw out a joke. "Yeah, stay up on my account, gorgeous. Y'know," he purred suggestively, "I taught Short Pants here everything he knows about women." "Roy!" Barbara and Dick objected simultaneously. Roy chuckled easily, relieved at the break in tension. "Yep, I don't know where old Robbie would be if he didn't have me around to tell him how the world works. Probably still living in a cave." "Careful, Harper," Bruce rumbled as Barbara giggled and Dick shook his head. "Of course, now he needs me around for those parenting tips," Roy continued, smiling in Dick's direction. Dick made his face a mask of innocence. "Golly, Roy, it's a good thing you were there for me. Otherwise I